I Haven't Been Here Much Lately...

[theotherside]

Ive been trying to just forget everything.

But i made small steps. I took my little one outside. By myself. That is huge. I cant say i was comfortable because i wasn't. I was on edge the whole time.

I also made an appointment with a T. I finally picked one. Even though he is a male and i might need to switch to a woman before getting into trauma work..i just felt he was more experienced and that made me feel more comfortable than any of the other Ts i interviewed.

Anyway..
Just wanted to say hi to everyone. I still come here and read a little, just have not felt like posting much

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm glad you are making progress, that is brave of you to take your little one outside. Yes, any of us might have been uncomfortable, but the fact is that you did it. That is what matters.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Good for you getting outside!! Little steps is all you need. This forum is great. I like to read more than what I feel qualified to post. But I am coping better these days. The insight and advice I get here is very helpful. I hate PTSD, I hate that others have to suffer too. But here I am truly with my people.

 

[illusionist]

Glad you are making progress and even better that you are aware of it. It takes a lot of work but worth it in the end. You must have felt a great sense of achievement taking your little one outside...be proud of yourself.

 

[theotherside]

Thanks everyone :)
@richter scale sadly taking her out made me feel worse about myself. Instead of feeling proud i came home after a few hours feeling like a failure and a loser. My body was tense and i had a migraine and i just felt so sad and discouraged that this is our reality right now.

I used to be sooo opposite..
Social, relaxed, outgoing, not scared, happy enough with myself. Confident enough.

A simple trip to the park with kids is sooo different now. Its like im a completely different person.

I want the old person back.

I see a new T soon and im hoping i can get the right help to just be able to function better in my life...