HëllaBubz
Diamond Member
It feels like eternity since I was last on here, either way it has been far too long.
I've grown a lot since I was last on here, much to my pleasure, so much to learn and so much to do.
I started working part time earlier this year, I was so scared but it was a massive confidence boost as my performance has been excellent and top of the class in training.
I enjoy it but the shift hours are killing me, so I've applied for a really good full time job on the other side of the city. I hear back today whether or not I'll get it.
I've also enjoyed learning how to navigate office politics and make new friends as well, that's been really confidence boosting.
I'm also shit scared. My child is almost 3, and the only kind of childcare we've been able to do is an Au pair, but so far it has been great.
Mostly scared though, because this new job I'm looking at will be pivotal in my career, it's working as a service desk for an accounting company, largest on the continent, so lots of prospects.
But the other thing I'm seriously considering is a carpentry apprenticeship, mainly because I'm still young, and within a year I'll be on better money than this office job.
I'm tough, unique and it would give me the skills to build my own property portfolio which Ive always wanted. I'll have 10 days from today to find an apprenticeship if I get this office job offer, otherwise I'm forced into one.
Don't get me wrong, working for this other office job would be great, but I'm trying to look at long term progress too.
Pivotal times.
I tried to run a ptsd social group, I look at that title now and laugh, it's kind of contradictory haha, so I shut it down after a few months. I'm glad I did because one member seemed nice but after a while turned out to have some personal beliefs that were very unpleasant.
I also had to crack it with the dog I rescued from my parents. She basically had dog ptsd, and had such high needs that as the child got older, the dog's behaviour got worse so I was forced to rehome her with a charity that specialises in such things.... She now lives a few suburbs away and is extremely happy.
I had a lot of guilt, but I had to keep reminding myself that being unable to meet a special need is not a personal fault, and I did as much as I could for her.
A few months after that, I'd had an accident and fallen down the stairs carrying my daughter.... She was fine as I forced myself to fall down in a way that protected her, but I couldn't walk for about a week.... Was sitting on Facebook and saw a post pop up about dog rescues so I had a paddle through and this picture of a puppy grabbed me immediately!
The child had been asking about our old for ages, and we missed her terribly.
Next thing, we're driving an hour away to see this dog. He was calm, curious but as soon as he realised we were to stay, he became very attached.
He spent the first week wrapped in a blanket and being cuddled in bed by my dog loathing partner he made sure I was aware of his pain and suffering at even handling this loathsome yapping thing, but often I'd come come and he, dog and child would be curled up together on the bed with both their hands stroking him in his sleep.
He was supposed to be an English staffy blend 'runt of the litter, won't get very big blah blah blah', because the other half hates big dogs especially.
So when the Rescue Gods heard us say we wanted a small family dog, they must have been in stitches when they gave us this animal.
Original name was snickers, due to coloring, and after 6 months I rang up the animal registry and changed it to Snickersaurus because the bastards won't stop growing!
He's a bloody boxer / American staffy with possible ridgeback!!!!!
He and the child are absolutely thick as thieves, and watching them reduces me to tears of laughter.
I've also started a course online, a diploma in management and HR, so either job path I choose can use it and I'm passionate about it.
Early this year, I decided to take up painting, so I painted the Milford Sound, New Zealand, where the child went from being a twinkle in my eye to *ahem*.... Never mind.
Anyway, it was her father's 32nd birthday, and as an engineer it's kinda special. Money can buy most things, but it can't by personal talent, so the stars above are the actual position as accurate as I could get them, of when the child was born, down to the second.
I've now started a second painting for myself, and I'll post updates as I go :)Well the child is awake, and I'm off to brush up my skills with power tools so I don't look like a Muppet with any potential apprenticeship interviews!
So much life left, so much I can cram into it :D
(I'll attach pictures in comments cos I keep getting an error.)
I've grown a lot since I was last on here, much to my pleasure, so much to learn and so much to do.
I started working part time earlier this year, I was so scared but it was a massive confidence boost as my performance has been excellent and top of the class in training.
I enjoy it but the shift hours are killing me, so I've applied for a really good full time job on the other side of the city. I hear back today whether or not I'll get it.
I've also enjoyed learning how to navigate office politics and make new friends as well, that's been really confidence boosting.
I'm also shit scared. My child is almost 3, and the only kind of childcare we've been able to do is an Au pair, but so far it has been great.
Mostly scared though, because this new job I'm looking at will be pivotal in my career, it's working as a service desk for an accounting company, largest on the continent, so lots of prospects.
But the other thing I'm seriously considering is a carpentry apprenticeship, mainly because I'm still young, and within a year I'll be on better money than this office job.
I'm tough, unique and it would give me the skills to build my own property portfolio which Ive always wanted. I'll have 10 days from today to find an apprenticeship if I get this office job offer, otherwise I'm forced into one.
Don't get me wrong, working for this other office job would be great, but I'm trying to look at long term progress too.
Pivotal times.
I tried to run a ptsd social group, I look at that title now and laugh, it's kind of contradictory haha, so I shut it down after a few months. I'm glad I did because one member seemed nice but after a while turned out to have some personal beliefs that were very unpleasant.
I also had to crack it with the dog I rescued from my parents. She basically had dog ptsd, and had such high needs that as the child got older, the dog's behaviour got worse so I was forced to rehome her with a charity that specialises in such things.... She now lives a few suburbs away and is extremely happy.
I had a lot of guilt, but I had to keep reminding myself that being unable to meet a special need is not a personal fault, and I did as much as I could for her.
A few months after that, I'd had an accident and fallen down the stairs carrying my daughter.... She was fine as I forced myself to fall down in a way that protected her, but I couldn't walk for about a week.... Was sitting on Facebook and saw a post pop up about dog rescues so I had a paddle through and this picture of a puppy grabbed me immediately!
The child had been asking about our old for ages, and we missed her terribly.
Next thing, we're driving an hour away to see this dog. He was calm, curious but as soon as he realised we were to stay, he became very attached.
He spent the first week wrapped in a blanket and being cuddled in bed by my dog loathing partner he made sure I was aware of his pain and suffering at even handling this loathsome yapping thing, but often I'd come come and he, dog and child would be curled up together on the bed with both their hands stroking him in his sleep.
He was supposed to be an English staffy blend 'runt of the litter, won't get very big blah blah blah', because the other half hates big dogs especially.
So when the Rescue Gods heard us say we wanted a small family dog, they must have been in stitches when they gave us this animal.
Original name was snickers, due to coloring, and after 6 months I rang up the animal registry and changed it to Snickersaurus because the bastards won't stop growing!
He's a bloody boxer / American staffy with possible ridgeback!!!!!
He and the child are absolutely thick as thieves, and watching them reduces me to tears of laughter.
I've also started a course online, a diploma in management and HR, so either job path I choose can use it and I'm passionate about it.
Early this year, I decided to take up painting, so I painted the Milford Sound, New Zealand, where the child went from being a twinkle in my eye to *ahem*.... Never mind.
Anyway, it was her father's 32nd birthday, and as an engineer it's kinda special. Money can buy most things, but it can't by personal talent, so the stars above are the actual position as accurate as I could get them, of when the child was born, down to the second.
I've now started a second painting for myself, and I'll post updates as I go :)Well the child is awake, and I'm off to brush up my skills with power tools so I don't look like a Muppet with any potential apprenticeship interviews!
So much life left, so much I can cram into it :D
(I'll attach pictures in comments cos I keep getting an error.)
