I Just Want Everything To Stop

[Blossom!!]

I'm not sure if I'm posting in the right forum, but I'm sorry if I'm doing this the wrong way. Have any of you just wanted to stop talking? Not like for a day or a short period of time, but just wanted to turn everything off. I hate that no matter how I feel no one can relate to it. I used to want to explain how I feel to people and maybe they could help, but no one can help and they just piss me off by trying to distract me or say to "stop dwelling" or they completely ignore me. I just wish that I could turn off my body and not feel anything or have flashbacks or anything. I want to stop talking and I'm not really sure how to go about doing it, because I also hate being rude to people, so if someone were to talk to me I'd feel bad for not responding, but I'm just so pissed that everyone else can just live normal lives and that they have absolutely no fear when they go out or when they sleep or anything. I've never not been afraid of something. I just wish I could successfully stop talking, maybe then it'd be easier to ignore everything. I'm just sick of life.

 

[Nevermore]

Yes I remember this feeling - it came just before I started to isolate myself. It was very confusing for me too.
It's hard to explain to people who have not felt the things you're feeling. I do hate that expression "dwelling" - as if it's a choice to keep rerunning painful events in your head! I wish!
Isolating doesn't really help though - just leads to another riddle wrapped up in an enigma.
Dont doubt yourself, but just know that people don't understand simply because they don't. It doesn't make you invalid.
Therapy helped me come out of that - someone to talk to who listens and has some idea of what you're talking about.
It's not a good idea to just stop communicating because it becomes s habit hard to break.

 

[Neverthesame]

Yes.

I absolutely know what you're on about. I don't like talking to people much. I remember when I could care about small talk. Sports, weather, politics, business and all that vacuous garbage people enjoy communicating with one another.

I don't care about most of it now. I really don't say much. Most times people look at me like I'm from Mars anyways when I speak. Sigh.

I don't know if it's possible to say nothing. But I have cut it down a minimum, except for here. People here actually get it, for the most part.

They may not understand the specific inns and outs of what I have experienced. But they get the feeling. Which is important, at least to me.

I wish I could tell you something more useful. Other than, I understand.

Silence can be golden.