I NEED to Hear Someone Say They Get It

[redtriskell]

I'm in therapy. I go to a group. I see a psychiatrist. I do everything you're "supposed" to do to get better, and I still can't eat or sleep or concentrate or feel pleasure in the things that are good in my life. I want to tell my war stories to someone-anyone who will not recoil from me. I do not want to contaminate my loved ones with this stuff that should stay in the past, but doesn't. Is this the right place? Thanks for your time. I hope to come back and talk more extensively. I hold all of the people like us in my heart. Regards to all of you, Lex

 

[FightingLily]

redtriskell,

Welcome to the forum! after your moderation period, you will be able to start a blog or trauma diary for your war stories.
Best Wishes,
Lily

 

[Deleted member 541]

HI & welcome,

Starting a diary may be very helpful to you, and talking to others that understand will also help. We understand and yes this is the right place for this....

 

[2quilt]

Welcome to the forum from a Desert Storm vet. And Welcome Home!
You really don't have to wait until you are out of moderation to start writing about your traumas. Go to the 'PTSD Chat' section and start a new thread, and all of us will listen. We understand!

 

[reallydown]

Welcome to the forum. As Lily says, once you come out of moderation you'll be able to keep a diary and get those stories out. You've come to the right place though.

 

[redtriskell]

Thank you all so much. I guess I will just wait until I can start the diary and get some of this poison out of me. Thanks again. Really. Alot. red

 

[Anonymoose]

I do understand your experience. I really do. I experienced severe trauma throughout my life and no matter what I do, I am beset by severe symptoms at times. It's unpredictable and uncontrollable and there is nothing that helps much. I take two antidepressants and see a therapist monthly and I still can't get to sleep until the sun rises. It's been over 30 years now and I'm trying to learn to accept that PTSD doesn't ever go away.

 

[brokenchild]

I'm new here too. Reading through the posts I think we both belong here. I've already written a Diary even though I have no idea when it will post. I just needed to get things out.

Hang in there. Sometimes writing things out can help immensely, even if it's not posted right away.

 

[marc69]

I'm writing this with tears running down my face.. I'm so incredibly tired of feeling this way. Spent a month in a Specialist Psychiatric Hospital. Saw the psychiatrist (still am), saw the therapist. Taking my pills. and yet, everything is numb. (Guess that's the purpose of the medication..) Impossible to maintain a relationship. Spending most of my time in my bedroom, sleeping. In the mornings I drag myself to work, try and get through the day. And the excuses on a regular basis why I can't make it to work..

The psychiatric hospital is close to where I stay. As a matter of fact, if I stand at the patio door of my town house, I can look into the beautiful gardens.. I often do, an ache in my heart, crying. I would give ANYTHING to be back amongst people who understand, don't judge, who are just themselves.. and I know it's an artificial environment.. but this is how I feel now. In a couple of minutes, who knows..

 

[FREEDOMROX]

Hi, Marc. I "Get" it. I really do. I have felt the same way, and probably just as broken as you seem, but I do this place brings one thing I haven't felt in a very long time....hope.

That is the gift that you are giving to yourself right now, hope.

There is nothing wrong with the way you feel. You are okay and amongst friends. In the short time I have been here, these folks have shown nothing but kindness.

Read around the forum a little bit and you will see what I mean. There are many others suffering a lot more than I am, and their courage is awe-inspiring.

It's just my opinion, but I think you have chosen wisely by coming here. Because I think everyone here does "Get it". I know I do.

If you feel comfortable enough, tell us a little about yourself and the difficulties you are facing now. Maybe even how you got to this point, but only if you are ready.

 

[redtriskell]

Upon reviewing what some of you very welcoming people have said, I want to make something clear that I guess came out wrong. I am not a war veteran. I have never served in any branch of the service. I sometimes refer to my experiences as if I had been in a war, because, to me, it was. I have great respect for anyone who has served, and I just wanted to be clear. I tend to use army references and slang because my father- the source of my ptsd- WAS a veteran. A bronze star winning, jumping out of planes, special forces green beret in Vietnam. When he came back, I guess he never really made it. He did things to me that the army trained him to do. So I say "war stories". I hope no one is offended. red

 

[Booknerd]

Redtriskill,

I too am new. I was in a emotional war during childhood and my recent trauma was work related. I'm a nurse. Your post is touching and don't feel bad because you were not in the "war". I feel like I am in a war against myself most days. Welcome and hope to read more of your posts.