I Realize That I

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize for the first time, duh!! That I have now very good friends and I sit back in awe and wonder how did this happen. I remember when I first came to the forum and did not have any friends at all because I had just moved to a brand new town and was so alone and depressed because I had no friends at all. I am in awe of this miracle.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I just have to walk different paths.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realized today that both of my grandchildren love me very much. I wrap this thought around me and hold it like a good hug from them. It is real and it lasts.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that if I could afford it right now, I would get myself back in therapy. I know I need extra help at this time in my life and I am so sorry that I cannot afford it.

 

[Tinyflame]

Years ago I said a prayer to help my mom lose weight, she had gained some quitting smoking. I realize I felt happy when she was, but it turned out to be cachexia (severe)- from cancer. I realize I felt guilty I had felt happy for her for that (not realizing it was from C, of course).

Just something on my mind (stupid).

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel ashamed to get angry.

I feel ashamed to ask for help.

I feel ashamed to be 'different', in all ways. :(

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I am not afraid of the language but of people.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Sometimes, @Anrish I am too. Especially the unpredictable ones. :hug:

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I learned to function but not to live.

 

[Ronin]

I am loved by my friends, and they're enough of lights to try beat the dang darkness for.

& That my kids still would want me..... /alive/. So I need to stay.

I also realize I need therapy so badly, but damned if I felt like trusting anyone new.

 

[Anrish]

@Ronin *supporting hugs*

I realize that it's okay to ask for help from time to time.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize the sum total of who I am is diferent than anyone I know. I don't mean better, I mean very different.