I Realize That I

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize this morning, after all of the stresses and pressures of the last four months, I am so exhausted by simply allowing it all to fall of my shoulders. I so want to move on going forwards and just focus on the present moment and not get caught up in past or future. I know easier said than done, but I am so willing and ready.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I am unable to make it rain by doing a rain dance...but it sure is fun trying.

 

[420kitty]

I realize that I'm an asshole.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize how very angry I am at the betrayals of my daughter to me and my grandkids.:mad::mad::mad::mad:

 

[Deleted member 42957]

I've realised that I have 3 lives.
The (false) life I share with everyone else.
The hidden life that no one sees
And now a new life since I have joined this group of lovely people.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realized how badly I need to get back into therapy to find the help I need in sorting out all of my unruly emotions.

 

[ms spock]

I realise that I am growing and changing so much. I am improving in every area of my life. I am more here. I am more present. I am braver. I am doing a lot.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I'm not alone.

I realize that I have to take it slow.

I realize that pushing myself doesn't help when I'm unfocused.

 

[Ronin]

Should wait for their messages.
Wrote that 'Only Today', 'Not Today', 'Fidelis' on my hands for a reason.
(Death isn't home. Death isn't doing-things-right. Death isn't... whatever the f*ck held babies get spoonfed for months. It isn't doing well. It isn't home. It isn't right. Back to Fidelis. For every helmeted darling that f*cking cared to set me straight and sit me on my ass, or more like, make me sleep while they waited for that fugue& passing.)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I am not going to make it without being in therapy again to help me to see better options and get some good advice from my therapist. I can call the Hotline as much as I need to, she said. I am not going to make it without help.

 

[Ronin]

@Rain, we're with you. Maybe not right where you are, but right there, with you.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@Ronin I have tears in my eyes, thank you so very much. I realize that you have your heart and hands full at the moment so I am here for you to. Very grateful for what you said and I know you mean it.:cry::hug: