I Seem To Function The Best In The Worst Situations

[ladee]

Sael know one knows what's best for someone else. And I will validate your reasoning...if you promise to keep us updated on how you are doing and feeling..
Can you commit to that?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Well ideally..you will reach a concious decision to start slowing down some and start putting other thigs...

But how do I deal with it in small chunks... I look at it similarly as the industrial problem, the price per piece of a huge bunch, vs small numbers, e.g. 500 boxes vs 500 000 boxes. The price per box goes down, although, obviously, to total cost goes up.

Similarly for dealing with bad stuff, when I'm dealing with it piece by piece, in small chunks, it feels like it's being more costly than when dealing in a large chunk, and it just might make more sense to deal with it in large chunks... ?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Sael know one knows what's best for someone else. And I will validate your reasoning...if you promise to...

Sure.

I just sorta am wasting less time on feeling awful now...

 

[ladee]

If that makes more sense to you...then do it that way. What hopefully you will also learn is how to do maintenance on what is uncovered.
Admittedly from your own mouth. Or keysroke as the case may be..you do not do well with self care. Not a judgement..a fact.
And if you are not doing self care between the path he chunks..you spiral.
Self care can be going for a walk when you feel things piling up. Simple breathing...it doesn't have to be anything complicated..it just has to work for you.
If you have those things in place to fall back on..then go for it.
You know we are here for you. And we will do all we can to help thru the bad parts.
But you have to make a commitment to yourself..as hard as it Might get..you are going to get thru to the other side.
I do understand Sael. This shit hurts and is just damned unfair. But if we ever want things to get better..we have to do the work.
You already know that!
And you are further than you were.
So ya
.big chunks if you're ready.

 

[ladee]

And you do sound happier and like you are feeling better.

 

[Deleted member 541]

I used to be like this. I'd function like a well oiled machine. When everything was over and done with, I'd litterly fall apart and have a personal shit storm within myself. Total mess afterwards.

Now that things are pretty calm with the PTSD, I'm ok, during and after. I think it might be emotional regulation or some shit like that is better...

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Yea, I understand what you mean :hug: But I have a feeling as if this is damaging me less, in a way, an...

Understand @Saelben Understand. JJ

 

[Rainsong]

I always found myself more awake and sharp when I was heartbroken after a relationship ended. Similar to what you described, I always knew what to do, how to do it, and got super focused and effective. It felt like shit, and I was miserable of course, but at the same time it felt awesome. Like the stress in my stomach matched the stress in my head in some weird way. I always liked the adrenaline rush you get from thinking you would die. I still like standing at the edge of a cliff, looking down and feeling that rush, it's like I'm finally alive.

I learned through therapy to calm myself, and be as comfortable in the calm as I can be, to stand still and deal with the feeling of stillness. I feel like moving away, leaving the partner I've been with for ten years, only to get that feeling.

My sister who probably also have ptsd, (she has only been in therapy for a short time) keeps moving from one place to another. When things fall in place and everything is calm in her life, she moves. She functions when things are unstable, and still gets really stressed out by the calm.

We learned to function with our brains and bodies in a high level of stress, so that is what makes us feel comfortable in our own skin

 

[Deleted member 28403]

If that makes more sense to you...then do it that way. What hopefully you will also learn is how to do ma...

One problem though is that I am not really able to get away from stressors, especially since they have a tendency to yell and follow me around.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I used to be like this. I'd function like a well oiled machine. When everything was over and done with,...

I'm not really sure how emotional regulation works :p

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I always found myself more awake and sharp when I was heartbroken after a relationship ended. Similar...

Hmm, interesting, I can relate somewhat to the relationship thing, but I am not really good at dealing with breakups... I guess to much rejection and manipulation through life

 

[Rainsong]

Hmm, interesting, I can relate somewhat to the relationship thing, but I am not really good at dealing...

Mostly it's the feeling of everything falling apart, I think. Doesn't always have to do with breakups, but the feeling of the ground just disappearing under your feet, that feeling makes me focused.