I think I'm giving up

[mylunareclipse]

I can feel it in bones. Things feel dreary. I don't want to be alive anymore. And there's no one to tell or help. I don't really care anymore about myself anyway.
It will always be this way. I am not sure what to do.
My therapist of three years changed jobs a few months ago and now I am left on my own.
I have tried to talk to an online counselor but it's just not the same and I cannot really afford a new therapist or know if I want to put the effort and work of three years.

I am just tired but i am acting like everything is ok. When it's not.

 

[ladee]

You reached out to tell us how hard things are right now. In many ways, that is a very good thing. Everyone needs encourgement to hang on when things feel so hopeless.

It's hard not having any help, but you do have us, and this place to come to. You are not completely alone. Tho it's not the same as having a real life person, we do understand what you are feeling. Sometimes we just need to betold what we are feeling is normal. Ya, to feel hopeless sometimes, or even many times,is normal for us.

It's so hard to hang on until something changes. Just came thru one of these myself. But things do change. We read something, or some one says something that gives us a little hope, or something happens that changes the way we feel for a little while and gives our tired mind a break.

Glad you reached out to let us know how you are feeling today. Sometimes we just have to trust the process. It's hard to change old messages and actions. But you can do it. Just keep coming here and letting us know what is going on and we will help if we can.. you don't have to do it alone and we do understand.

 

[DharmaGirl]

It's hard to lose a therapist, but you can still work on your issues while looking for a new one. Suicidal thoughts are just thoughts, and you can wait for the thought to pass. It isn't the answer. I hope you can find something to grab onto so that you feel better.

 

[EveHarrington]

I hope you look for a new therapist.

It's not starting over...

Most people use multiple therapists in their healing journey. Each one moves us forward in a different way.