I Think More Flashbacks Are Coming

[Powder]

Heather, are you feeling better now at this point? Any advice to share yet? I hope you are feeling better. :)

 

[Heather]

Hi Muse -

Thanks for caring:). I've been struggling for awhile now and I don't really feel any better but this too shall pass right? Eventually anyway. The depression is soooo bad right now which makes functioning really, really hard.

Whatever that flashback was it never did come and I still do NOT feel right in my body. Perhaps my mind recognizes that I'm not ready to handle it -- who knows. All I know is that I still feel like sh*t and it's been going on 3 weeks now maybe longer, this sucks.

Thanks for inquiring.

Take care. Heather

 

[Muzikluvr]

:wave: Muse -

When you're ready, turn around and shine a light on that memory, and then let us support you. :hug:
You are not alone. :)

 

[Muzikluvr]

OOooops! :oops: I meant Heather! :faint:

 

[Powder]

Heather,

Could you have actually had the flashback in the form of an emotional flashback? I've heard of "emotional flashbacks" in which you get the feelings, just not the "why" behind them. Perhaps you are now processing and experiencing the terrible emotions that you repressed in the past during the time surrounding the abuse. The lenghth of time you are taking to process it would suggest that something surfaced or that what did surface is enough for you right now, as you said, that you can't handle more than that right now. Take it easy on yourself. There's no point in judging your reactions and what you are going through is your healing journey for you, for your spirit; you can do no wrong in processing those feelings. I feel for you and know the darkness of what you feel. Don't push it away but realize it is an emotion, like a wave. The wave may wash over you, but it is not you. It may knock you down or move you to a new place, but it doesn't control you beyond that. And you can control how you will use it. Like a surfer, you can move with the wave and use it to get where you want to be. Take care and know that we are supporting you.

XOXO Muse

 

[Powder]

Heather, I forgot to ask you if you have medication to help you cope with the shaking and depression. Do you have a support person who is close?

 

[Heather]

Heather, I forgot to ask you if you have medication to help you cope with the shaking and depression. Do you have a support person who is close?

I'm on meds for depression but it feels like it's not working at all these days. My &*%*$#@ nurse practitioner won't prescribe anything for the anxiety that I'm feeling!! I've asked her repeatedly.

Very limited support right now.:(

Thanks for all your support Muse. Hugs, lots and lots of hugs.

Heather

 

[Powder]

Yeah, I have a problem with that, too. :affection:
Can you get into a regular doctor even just a family doc for some Lorazapam or Ativan? Even something for sleep? I think you'd feel much, much better, like I did. I'm off it now for the most part, so just take it easy with the stuff if you get it, 'cause it can be hard to get off if you take it more than 6 months; you don't need that long to get better.

Take care! Muse