I wanna die

[whiteraven]

I just want to go to sleep tonight and never wake up. Just when I'm feeling a wee bit better things at work get really bad again. I have therapy tomorrow, but every time I leave it feels like I'm being thrown back into a hostile and unsafe world. I don't want to do it anymore. I'm tired. it's exhausting. It's terrifyingly lonely. I'm working on getting through the week on my own, but some days I barely make it. And those days it's so hard because there's nowhere to go with the intense emotional stuff.

*sigh*

 

[ladee]

I'm not clear about you have no where to go with this emotional stuff.
This is a very good place to bring it.
Vent it out. Shout it out. Cry it out. We are here to listen and support because we do understand.
And you are very right. It is hard. It is exhausting.
Hope things get better for you and that you take advantage of this space provided for us here.

Gentle hugs.​

 

[whiteraven]

Sorry. Yes, here is a good place. This is definitely my first go-to place. Even just reading here helps. Sometimes, though, I really wish I had someone I knew to talk to. To tell. That's all I meant.

And sometimes I feel like I have to be careful here. Like I might say the wrong thing and get in trouble. I know that's just me; I have that worry sharing everywhere, with everyone.

 

[anonymous]

Then hope you share more often to get past your fear. Its pretty hard to get in trouble here. But you owned that. Proud of you for that.
Thank you for sharing that you wish you had more real life support.
This is hard work Hon. Seems never ending. But I promise, it does get better. It does get easier.
Hopefully you will get some rest. Things are so much harder when we are exhausted.
Sending you Gentle hugs and hope for a better tomorrow.

 

[EveHarrington]

Nah, don’t worry so much about saying the wrong thing. People here are brutally honest (something I like), and it seems like you only get into trouble if you’re attacking someone like calling them names or something like that.

I hope you keep posting and reaching out for support!

 

[ladee]

Sorry!. Have no idea how I hit Anonymous! See. Now you have something to smile about. Hugs