I have been laid up in bed for a week now with extreme low back pain. This basically means I cannot get up by myself or walk by myself or anything really. My husband, who is ptsd thay manifests as anger, has been taking care of me. He acts like it is the worse thing he has ever had to do which makes me not want to ask him. When I do, there is a lot of sighing and eye rolling. I honestly do not think he believes that it hurts as much as it does. He constantly goes on about how he has just learned to deal with his back pain but I can guarantee this is different than normal back pain. I get so upset and frustrated by his behavior and I feel like he doesn't treat me like someone who loves another person. For instance, tonight I was standing up trying to reach my advil bottle on our coffee table. I accidentally knocked over a soda which did make a huge mess. However, it is not the end of the world and nothing got damaged but you would have thought I destroyed our house. He threw everything off the table, slammed all the cabinets trying to find a towel and made a big show of acting like he is the only person who never makes mistakes. It actually hurt my feelings a lot because I am in excruciating pain and definitely did not mean to do that, I just could not bend fully to pick the bottle up. Times like this, I almost regret marrying him but then I feel guilty feeling that way because I do love him. Sorry this is basically like a huge rant, but I have no one else to go to.
Amber
Amber
