I Was Doing Fine Until I Thought I Was Going To Die.

[Padfield]

I've had PTSD for a couple of years. The last six months have been amazing. No symptoms. Except for a little anxiety and depression. But overall have been good. My trauma is gun based mainly. Well, the other night a neighbor threatened to come kill me if I didn't stop talking on my balcony (he lived below my apartment). Thirty seconds later I hear stomping up the stairs and a loud banging and yelling at my door. I was unarmed and had nothing to protect myself with. I called the police. But that wait for them was awful. Anyways, I'm symptomatic again. Seems as if it is getting worse by the day. My trust in people is gone now. I'm once again thinking people in public are dangerous. I fear for my life constantly again. I decided to arm myself which helps but not enough. I don't even feel safe at home. And I am hyper aware and hyper vigilant. I can't afford therapy at the moment. Not sure what to do. I was hoping someone can help me. I feel as if I am getting sucked back into darkness.

 

[Freedomfighter]

I've had PTSD for a couple of years. The last six months have been amazing. No symptoms. Except for a...

Try online grounding videos, emdr videos on you tube. I have a neighbor below me that engages in prostitution and she reported me for vacuming at night, you see what Iam getting at?
There are lots more crazy people around then there used to be.

 

[Beaglefan61]

The recent event seems to really have triggered you. For most people it would be scary after such a threat. For you it brings back more, especially if you had gun based issues already and you didn't know if the person who just made the threat had one or not. If feeling unsafe in public and with people it sounds like it would be a good time for therapy. That you can not afford therapy at this time must be very frustrating. Good that you are saying something here for any relief you can get. Support by other people can make a needed difference when we are afraid of other people. Safety being generalized sure would make a difference i bet. Best to you in things easing up for you.