I Wish I Could Recapture Fun Again.....

[squireparty]

Sometimes I really wonder what is it with me? Here I am about to leave town for nine days to a place I honestly like - and with some time to do things for me - and I just feel nothing about it, totally numb and bland. I wish I could recapture that spark again, that joy, that fun.....Does anyone else here relate? What do you do to recapture this if anything?

 

[who am i kim]

I hope that when you arrive you will get some relief. It is good to treat yourself to your favorite things. Things you really really like, as that helps. Spoil yourself, pamper yourself if you can. Try to do one a day if possible of something you really like. Even if it is eating an ice cream, watching a sunset, seeing the night lights, sitting in a park, maybe buying something, relaxing by a pool. LOL winter over there. Taking a walk down your favorite street. Enjoy the Museums also. :hug::cool:

 

[Sailorgal]

Awww Squire, I think it's not only PTSD dragging you down but also the "I used to be" syndrome. We get depressed a bit when it's not how it used to be. Sonetimes you have to pick yourself up and enjoy it. Other times you may clearly not be able to. BUT you have to try.

Think about looking forward to it. Even if you don't feel it, it doesn't mean it isn't a wonderful trip.

I was on a 5 week sailing trip - a dream come true! Believe it or not, I didn't enjoy it until 3 months later. So enjoy no matter what!!!!

 

[aka]

I can really relate squireparty. I may go do something that I really like and not feel any happiness in doing it or being there. I know logically that I should feel happy but I can't seem to actually feel that emotion. I may do the same activity on a different day and will have a great time. I find it very frustrating how I can have either reaction and or be somewhere in the middle.

As far as recapturing fun I can't be much help there seeing as I have a hard time understanding what fun actually is. Seeing as I have no memories of not having PTSD I have trouble understanding and relating to what other people see as being "fun". I usually see these activities as stressful, uncomfortable, and or just plain stupid (binge drinking would be under this category).

Hope it helps to know that your not only one who has the problem.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Squire,

I had the same problem for a long time, and then I really started to work on mindfulness and living in the moment. It was only after I really started to master this skill that I noticed I was enjoying things more and more.

Just my .02.