idk whats wrong with me

[whoknows]

im sad all the time.
i dont want to die but i dont want to be here and thats scary, and it feels like everytime if i tell someone what im going through isnt bad enough to feel this way. i want to feel empty, and i want to not feel anymore, i know how bad that sounds. sometimes i stare at a spot in my room for so long it takes me out my bed and over to that spot instead, and it takes all of it away for a bit, then i snap out of it and im back, sobbing in my bed wanting to not exist anymore, and it hits me all over again.
whats wrong with me? i want to be normal.

 

[arfie]

hello who knows. welcome to the forum.

normal works best as a setting on a washing machine.

nobody here can diagnose you, but keep venting on what has you feeling the spin cycle. your answers are in there.