I'm Messed Up

[digger]

Maybe put some of it down on paper for her to read when she's feeling calmer? Tell her how it is for you. Get your feelings down and out about this. It might take some of the heat out of it and if she can read it over a few times it might help.

I'm glad you're still trying to get help. I really hope you get what you need from this.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

@Miss_Understood You are not to far gone.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Dear Miss_Understood. You deserve help, no matter what. Talking about the past trauma is hard, but to get it all out is the only healthy way forward. Otherwise it follows you around no matter where you go. You can do it! You can face the past trauma, and find a better life. Let the next 28 years be full of peace, love, hope and promise for yourself! And then the next 28 years after that.

WOW powerful words. I first suffered CSA when I was 5 yrs old. Numerous abusers both family and stranger and 37 yrs later I faced those demons head on this last weekend as I posted in my Memory walk Post.

Miss-understood you can overcome this. This forum and the peeps herein are all her for each and every one of us. I have learnt so much coming back here every day, sometimes posting or responding and sometimes just to rear others posts to find comfort. Sending Huge hugs from across the Atlantic Pond. Stay strong you and your situation are in my prayers.

Laurie

 

[Miss_Understood]

I just my wife will be here when it's all said and done and done and dead.

 

[Miss_Understood]

I am looking into getting help from the state. I think I need to quit my job because it's completely destroyed my self worth. I've let my managers walk all over me because I generally want to help others. I hate my job and I hate how it's contributed to my stress, self loathing and negativity. It's my fault for letting it affect me so. I now need constant praise and recognition from others around me.

So today I am quitting and looking into disability. I can't go on dealing with the public in my emotional state right now.

I have to learn they it's ok to feel sad and angry. It doesn't make me a bad person it makes me human. That's ok. I have a long road ahead of me.

 

[Everhopeful]

You can do it, dear Miss_Understood! That road may be long, but it is a journey that will be worthwhile!