I'm New... And I Am Panicking!

[LittleEmily]

Hello,

I am new to this forum and I am very grateful to have found it.

I'm currently feeling very, very anxious. The cause of my PTSD was an abusive relationship. I am currently going through the court process. Not only am I afraid of him, and coping with all he did in the relationship and all the harassment since it ended - I am also in a sense afraid of my diagnosis of PTSD.

The feelings I have in themself are frightening. Right now, I feel outside of myself, like I'm in a dream. I don't feel quite in my body. I feel sick, I feel a tension I felt when I was with my ex. I feel like I am right back there again, sat next to him. I feel distant from other people. I feel stuck on loop. I have been fine all weekend - fairly relaxed, then out the blue I start to shake, feel fear... And I can't explain why.

Is everything I feel normal? I am so worried I am going to end up going to the point of insane, not knowing who I am or where I am. It's very scary. Please can someone shed some light?

 

[Deleted member 20280]

@LittleEmily I would describe what you are going through as very much normal for a sufferer. I have regular panic attacks and feelings of third person. It can and does get better. Remember to self care, use your copings/groundings to best effect as well. Hopefully your Therapist will have given you some by now.

I send a Devonian :hug: if you accept it

Laurie

 

[LittleEmily]

Hello Laurie. I am sorry you are suffering too. I have recently moved house and changed doctors so have to wait until the end of May to see a new pschiatrist. In the meantime I have good friends, and I am on Diazapam and Sertraline, but my sypmtoms feel like they are getting worse as more memories flood my brain if that makes sense? What coping mechanisms work for you?

 

[sweetcandy]

Welcome Little Emily.
What you're experiencing is normal. I find the feelings themselves are frightening as well. I can definitely relate to that. I experience panic attacks as well and have flashbacks. It does get better in time as you heal. I hope you find this forum supportive during your recovery.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I have numerous Coping's, some of which I share regularly with other members, I can PM them to you if you wish.

 

[LittleEmily]

Yes please Laurie.
Thank you Sweet Candy. I feel a little calmer now. I haven't eaten for most of the day. I am tired as I wake virtually every night having the same nightmare. I just want to be normal again.