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[FashionablyFlawed]

I don't really know what to say. I'm looking for some help like everyone else i guess. I've been hospitalized and i've been to therapy...but none of it seems to help. And my family doesn't understand my condition at all. They get mad at me a lot for my behavior (panic attacks, flashbacks, irritable/scared mood) that is directly related to my PTSD.

I was raped when i was younger and within the same year was molested by someone very close to me. I have very unhealthy relationships because of this trauma. My life is....constant chaos.

I have high anxiety with a touch of mania. Depression. and an Eating Disorder...all associated with and stemming from the PTSD.

I just want to feel normal for a change instead of feeling like this shell of a human being. This walking ghost. This half person.

Sorry if that was too much information... or not enough... sorry.

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[olaja]

Hello Fashionably Flawed - Welcome to the Forum.

I hope you will find support here, and please know you are not alone. Your story is familiar to me, sadly...

Post as you can.

Best wishes for your healing.

 

[Happy Head]

No need to apologize. I think most of us can relate in one way or another. For me, I agree that I would like to feel normal for a change - even if it's not forever...

Anyhow, welcome to the forum.

 

[Sazza]

Hi there,

Glad you have found us, think alot of us can relate to life being chaos living with PTSD and other issues. Just wanted to welcome you we all have are different traumatic reasons for being here and i hope you find some support to help you feel more understood as PTSD can be a lonely journey at times.

Sazza

 

[Stormy Eagle]

Hi Fashionably...welcome. I totally know how you feel, very rarely do I feel like an entire human being. I made up my own disorder...devoid of personality disorder...I just felt so much less than human.

 

[Marie E.]

Welcome to the forum, I think you are at a good start as you choose to open up here :)

 

[shadowchaser]

Welcome to the forum.

I know it can be scary when you first start on here but it gets better with time. Just post what you can.

 

[Lemmingnot]

Welcome,
I found it comforting to know that there were others here who understood, people who can listen to stuff and not freak out.
Check out the forums for some really good info from some really good people. Wishing you the best.