I'm So Not Ok Right Now

[jd9900]

To tap into what The Albatross said, I too think it couldn't hurt to call your T in this interim period. I would try not to make it a daily habit, but I suspect (s)he would rather you call then start to slip backwards.

 

[Mercy]

Good Idea. There is no point in finding ways to hate your T. The only thing you will have made is rhino wallow, full of hate which is a strong poison to human beings. Then as time goes by, perhaps you will find other people you would like to hate. For each poison wallow you make, more of your own inner goodness (and yes, it is in there!) will be soiled and burned.The best possible blessing here is to do the grieving you need to do and forgive her for "leaving you."