I'm So Stupid.

[discarded]

I am a parent and have endured many difficult and stressful situations with my children. I have never ever felt like it was their fault. I never questioned if I would be there for them or not, it never entered my head to be anything other than their mum. You really don't need to feel guilty about any of it. It what normal families do, be there for each other. I would be sad to think my kids felt guilty about something they have no control over or felt like a burden to me. As parents we feel sad that we can not always take your pain and suffering away. Please don't feel guilty. You have nothing to be guilty for.

 

[99Phoenix99]

Humans are not constructed with steel, we're made of flesh, soft, flawed, easily damaged flesh and this flesh is not what makes you, You. It's that enduring spirit, the one that smiles, feels love and can see wonder in the world despite what the body is going through - that is you and that is your strength, nothing can ever take that from you.

Medic... Your whole reply is hard for me read. Logicaly I know you're right. And there are times when I read this reply and it makes perfect sense which then makes me cry. Ad then there are other times when I read it and it's like looking at an alien script. It's... odd to say the least.

I'm not really sure what I can say in reply... except thank you. Thank you for caring enough to reply to me.

 

[99Phoenix99]

If I couldn't do my kettlebells or any of my strength training I do not think I have it inside me to keep the PTSD Beast in check. I feel for you, like I am all freakin teary eyed right now trying to damn type this. WTF, I am usually pretty numb to the stuff that goes on around me. I don't know what to say.

I want you to feel better...

Over9000 I'm glad you've found a way to keep your PTSD in check with working out. I'm pretty jealous. I used to do that when I played sports. It was a way to work out frustration. But... I can't do that anymore. It throws off my equilibrium. I'm still searching for a new way to keep it all in check.

I'm sorry that my post upset you like that. I hope you've been alright since? But I'd like to thank you for posting even though it did upset you. I know how hard it is for me to post when I'm upset or don't know what to say, so it means a lot to me that you'd take the time to post despite that.

Thank you for caring. Your support really has helped me.