I'm "too Hard"

[Sideways]

Discharge first thing tomorrow morning...BOOYAH:cool:

@Sandstone - "she (my doc) thinks your case is extremely complex and she can't bear the risk..." I think it's the trauma details she can't handle. f*ck it - I won't talk to her about anything but the freakin weather from now on!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Discharge first thing tomorrow morning...BOOYAH

You go girl! Im so happy this all worked out so well and so glad your therapist helped it to work out. You so deserve to be happy! :hug:

 

[anthony]

stop talking and get myself discharged because I need to get out of hospital.

I think that is your only focus about now... hospital, more pills to shut you up, is not going to help you ultimately.

 

[Sideways]

@anthony - contrary to my earlier statement, apparently I can be a bit of a miracle worker when it comes to getting the Discharge stamp, because overnight I talked her down from ITOs to discharge status! Back at home, have decided on an obvious-but-not-threatening place for my first "I am free to like myself" note, and working my way through a stack of paperwork to get myself a Service Dog...they don't prescribe meds or hospitalisation, and they don't threaten to walk out because your past is too yuck!

 

[anthony]

I have two beautiful cavoodles for a reason... and I don't see doctors, period... for obvious reasons that they too often just wanted to stuff me with pills. Did it myself, the hard way, but 12 years on and I'm a shitload more stable and without medication. You can do it... it just takes hard work and persistence.

 

[ladee]

Ahhh @Ragdoll Circus , we do learn how to play the game don't we... !! Happy you are home, and over the top you have put your first sign up !!!! And a service dog will be so awesome for you... Have you talked to your Guinea about this??? :playful:
Was wondering if you have looked at this situation and seen any growth in yourself? A few months ago, handed this same situation, the outcome would have been very different...One of the things I admire about you, if you do throw a problem out here, you take what you need and try to implement it into your life.
Hope you and T can work out the problem areas and move on with the healing work. Very proud of you !!! Tears of joy for you and lots of hugs... :hug::hug::hug::hug:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

@Ragdoll Circus what words cannot express! Im first extremely happy that you are home! The 2 places ive found to put notes by the way is on the fridge (where my therapist's are) and ive written on the bathroom mirror with dry erase marker but if you are like me and dont look in the mirror (though this would stop the looking at the mirror to write and read it, erase and write different which is why i did it that way) but if you dont want the mirror yet then paper the f*cking hell with it with post it notes or tape bigger messages to it. Id also put some on my closet door and the front of the range hood (the thing above the stove if its called something different there lol). The inside of both my front and back door.

^^^^ But thats all me and my house. Basically pick the most used areas.

If it were me, Id talk to your therapist about ACT. For me, it seems he's already going through it but tomorrow im gonna ask him about the book but damn...for a dyslexic, ive got too many books to read already.

I want a service dog so bad! And i dont think i can turn my extremely well trained dog into a service dog simply because he's a pitbull sadly! But he and my tazor are the only reasons i can step outside now that there was a break in and shooting 50 ft from my bedroom window and it now wouldnt matter if i moved. I wouldnt be able to handle a 2nd dog and im not giving up my current dog.

im wondering if i can ask my therapist to type up something on letter head about needing him due to PTSD. I so want to be able to bring him to more places because going through a store alone it seems like, to me, that im walking through "hell" or something.

Did it myself, the hard way, but 12 years on and I'm a shitload more stable and without medication.

I admire that in you. I never knew you did it without a Dr but you seem like one of those head strong people that can and though im very strong willed and very bullheaded, I cant imagine doing this alone. Kudos to you Sir, kudos to you! Thats no easy feat!

@Ragdoll Circus i agree, you got this! Message me anytime you just need to talk. :hug: