I am shy and bold at different time but trust me, some of the kindness that shines through here can help for another day :)
Welcome. I try not to read or post too much in this forum because it is overwhelming to me, but I I hope to make people feel welcomed like I was when I had the nerve to post the first few days!
So, sorry you have to make sense of what you have had to live with and in reality it shouldn't be on your shoulders but yet again, you are surviving another moment of your lifetime. I wish you well and peace!!! <3