Incapacitating Anxiety- Management?

[St.Maybe]

Hi all.

I haven't been around on this site for a while... I feel like I've mostly been in bed since I was last here- but I'm starting to come back around and function again. From facing eviction to being at least a month ahead on all my bills including rent, I have to say that first and foremost I am very grateful and feeling incredibly blessed.

Still though things are pretty challenging and I need some support/advice.

To start, I'd been struggling with depression and anxiety for a couple of months... it had gotten to the point where I began considering suicide. I was staying in bed for days at a time, and widely neglecting my responsibilities... hard is not the word, but I slowly decided to have more faith than not. I worked up to being able to leave the house again... and when I did, I was nearly abducted at a local strip mall... I want to say it was my first day out of the house in weeks. This happened about two weeks ago, and since then I've been having increased anxiety- to the point where I'm having trouble leaving the house again. Lately I have full-blown panic attacks whenever someone tries to talk to me on the street...which amounts to me having these episodes several times a day when I do leave the house... and I guess a couple times a day when I don't, for reasons I have trouble pinpointing right now. At this point, I just don't know what to do other than ride it out... and I'm having trouble doing that and maintaining my health at the same time.


Well, that's what's up in my world.
Thanks for listening, and for your advice.
Wishing you well,
XX
Reno

 

[Tinyflame]

@St.Maybe have to run but just read for that hugs or if no one tightly hug yourself. Something called the squeeze, pressure on your back & pelvis, even a knee in your back, supposedly it works. Read about re: anxiety & yet oddly for thing for suicidal kids (where I heard about it).

:hug:

 

[ground crew]

Um, I used to drive a cab and had daily dangerous encounters. It became normal. I stopped needing a day off after the bad ones... I adapted to an insane situation. No healing could occur until I got out of the insane situation.

I understand you are where you need to be for various reasons, but is there a safer place to be? Maybe a long walk from where one may get abducted?

 

[St.Maybe]

It isn't really a dangerous neighborhood... that is to say, it's not as if I went somewhere I was at all more likely to be approached that way than anywhere else... broad daylight.

I can definitely appreciate your input- I once worked a job that put me in some really sketchy positions. But the truth is, I don't find myself in crazy environments where the situation itself is the underlying problem these days. I'd just gone to a shopping center in the morning for some headphones and a birthday card.

Also, hugs help but I live alone. I'll be sure to stock up on some next time I visit friends x)

Thanks again : )

 

[Freedomfighter]

Hi all.

I haven't been around on this site for a while... I feel like I've mostly been in bed since I...

Yeah I know how you feel. If I could stay home I would too, I am at my happiest when I do not have to deal with people at all. Wish I could make a living at that.