Indifference

[ChronoAngel]

Does anyone else experience indifference to everything? What about not believing people when they say the care about you?

 

[EveHarrington]

What about not believing people when they s...

I don't think this is indifference.

This is more like pushing people away.

 

[ChronoAngel]

I don't believe anyone really. Or I think there is an alterior motive. It isn't just when I am being told they care about me, but especially when being told. As far as indifference, I have almost zero interest in anything anymore. Like I lost all passion and thirst for life. I can't even make decisions anymore because I honestly don't care. It is frustrating my significant other. I really don't want to lose him.

 

[EveHarrington]

Cynicism

 

[WishfulThinking123]

I have complete indifference usually when I go into my disassociation state... Believing people care about me is a big struggle because...what means more just words or actions? What is more true?

 

[Deadman]

I really don't want to lose him.

Well there is one thing you care about. Maybe there are others too?

 

[Julia426]

I have almost zero interest in anything anymore. Like I lost all passion and thirst for life. I can't even make decisions anymore because I honestly don't care.

Sounds like depression to me. People in dissociative states are completely detached, but I'm getting the sense that you're talking about 24/7. That exceeds the bounds of PTSD and goes into the depression realm.

I don't feel abnormally indifferent, but I do feel very attached when someone has expressed that they care about me. I hold those that care about me very close. I think that's because of the trauma I endured. When I feel myself drifting from someone, I do everything I can to restore the bond.

 

[Friday]

Does anyone else experience indifference to everything?

Sometimes. In a few different ways. Sometimes my give-a-f*ck breaks, other times I'm zoned out, or dealing with depression, or this world & it's rules just don't parse/make sense, or I'm stuck in survival mode & fatalistic as f*ck, or I've misplaced my emotions. So the effect can come from multiple sources. Figuring out which is pretty key in how I come at it. That's assuming it's not a straight up side effect from something physiological. Like sleep dep, starvation, medication, etc.

What about not believing people when they say the care about you?

Depends on who is saying it, and in what context.

Disbelieving someone I've known for 2 minutes is different than disbelieving someone I've known for 2 years, ya know? There are also a whole lot of ways in which people care. 5 people can all care about me in different ways, to different depths. Doesn't mean any of them are lying. Also doesn't mean any of them care about me in ways I wish to be cared about &/or agree with.

 

[Sideways]

Yup - anhedonia. There is no point to anything, and no pleasure in anything. It's part of the depressive symptoms. As a rule of thumb, you keep engaging in life as much as you can to nip the depression in the bud.