Insomnia

[OKRADLAK]

I cannot understand the human body. It is designed disaster. I have not slept for almost a week. It was off and on for almost a month.......getting up at 4am and then 2 am.....about in two weeks it was just all night. And now it is solid. Walking around like a zombie and then at night when I go to lay down, terror now because I can't sleep and am in pain.

I should be worse off, but no, I am almost manic. I ran THREE HOURS to try to tamp this down. Nothing. Just my brain saying "HAHAHA! You dumb ass. I am going to kill you!"

I can't even eat so I am losing weight.

My muscles hurt, I am trying meds, they work but make me crazy and then stop working.

I cannot believe I am not hallucinating.

Time to go to the ER but I don't want to go back to that place.

If I make no sense, It's almost 2 am and I took meds two hours ago. Hmmmmm. My brain is just too insane. It never stops, never, like a monster.

And that Damn dr triggered the pain syndrome. Still in pain.....

I don't know why I am posting this...................vomtting on the post?

 

[hazen]

Those nights are painful for me, and it sounds like you aren't just having painful nights, you are having pain.

I feel like I understand why you posted this, because on those nights when it is 4 AM and all you want to do is sleep and can't, and there's no one to talk to, no one to listen to your suffering... that sucks!!!

Please take care. The body does nutty things when it gets that sleep deprived. The ER may be awful but if you can't get help any other way... I know how much going there is un-fun.

I also understand the running and exercising... I trained for marathons partly to burn off all of my anger and to try to find a way to get my body to calm down. But I never found peace, I just found exhaustion and it is not the same thing.

I'm sorry this is happening to you and I hope you get some sleep soon! ((popping two benadryl in my mouth))

 

[Vee Lagrome]

Augh! I hate those periods of insomnia. It's like absolutely nothing in the world can cure it and for me personally, I become far too attached to sleep meds far too quickly, so I do my best to avoid them until I feel like I'm literally losing my mind to exhaustion. It's like, your sane brain and your body are screaming for sleep, but there's this little piece of your brain that is screaming even louder for you to stay panicked and actually tries very hard to come up with reasons for you to panic. It's so frustrating that I often feel like just suffocating myself so that I would just pass out for several hours.

When I have those periods, I feel like ranting about anything and everything, but don't have all of my marbles together to make sense, so I understand where you're coming from!

My last bout of it lasted 5 months and I seriously lost it. That is far longer than it has ever lasted for me and nothing I seemed to do worked at all. So, definitely keep your therapist and psychiatrist in the loop on that one!

 

[Gamereign555]

Its funny but sometimes when I know I'm in insomnia mode I won't take the sleep medications for fear that they will not work and leave me in a very uncomfortable place.