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I've started EMDR. We did a little bit on some more recent, "easier" memories to start out. Now we are doing the prep work for the intense memories to get ready to process them with EMDR. Last week was pretty rough and I was brave enough- and felt comfortable enough with my therapist to say, "I need a break" and then that "I need to stop." Which is a huge positive step for me.
Tonight was worse. I was shaking and disassociated for a bit. It didn't feel like it, but my therapist picked up on it and worked with me to bring me back to the present.
I still have one more area to go over, and It's the worst one. I don't know if I can do it. I know I can't do it the next time we meet. I know I need more time, and I also know that's ok. It's not a race. Realizing that is also a huge positive step for me.
I'm still struggling with the shaking and some anxiety now that I'm home from therapy, but I'm remembering to use my coping tools and they help (breathing, safe place, grounding, etc).
Just writing this out (I guess I just needed to vent and get it out) I'm realizing how grateful I am to have finally found such a good trauma therapist that I can relate to. I never could have done any of this with my previous therapists.
Tonight was worse. I was shaking and disassociated for a bit. It didn't feel like it, but my therapist picked up on it and worked with me to bring me back to the present.
I still have one more area to go over, and It's the worst one. I don't know if I can do it. I know I can't do it the next time we meet. I know I need more time, and I also know that's ok. It's not a race. Realizing that is also a huge positive step for me.
I'm still struggling with the shaking and some anxiety now that I'm home from therapy, but I'm remembering to use my coping tools and they help (breathing, safe place, grounding, etc).
Just writing this out (I guess I just needed to vent and get it out) I'm realizing how grateful I am to have finally found such a good trauma therapist that I can relate to. I never could have done any of this with my previous therapists.