Interesting Turn Of Events

[SeanCharles]

Okay. Why the title? I feel that this is a good way to begin this post. As many members on the forum know from various conversations, from chats to my various posts, either in my diary or as of late my member's diary that I have been struggling with being employed within my current employment situation.

While I am not writing this for the wrong reasons, I am writing this for self-affirming reasons. (hopefully this won't be misconstrewed).

I am in the midst of a project which some of you are aware of and the depth of this project which has of late taken a few different curves in the road.

While I am doing a lot of planning and anticipating several goals, deep inside there lurks a lot of negativity and mixed emotions and questioning... This is why I am writing this post.

The biggest emotion is fear. Am I setting myself up for failure? this is a nagging question which I am fighting against daily! Can I turn this project into something meaningful and beneficial to others as well as gaining self-satisfaction? This question is also nagging at me because it seems I can't find a purpose except to be stuck and ridiculed by the world as a whole! :(

Other questions include: what happens if all this doesn't lead to a difference in situation for me? This one seems to come up with everything I do! I am not sure what to really say about this question.

Hopefully, this post makes some kind of sense. In ways, I feel like I am not sure what I am expecting from this post.


Thanks,


---SeanGeo

 

[Neverthesame]

This may be a stupid question, but. I don't think I understand what your trying to do here.

This almost looks to me like you are setting up a sign you can point too later. Good or bad, sort of an "See, I told you so."

If I'm way off, sorry. I am just wondering.

 

[SeanCharles]

@Neverthesame That wasn't a stupid question, if there was one I missed. I guess in ways this was a random rumination thread, maybe this should have been more of a diary thread then an actual forum thread.