Sufferer Intro - did, ptsd, trafficking and ritual child abuse survivor

[Amy942]

Hi everyone,

I'm new to this forum. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, DID, MDD and a panic disorder as a result of long-term organized child abuse (trafficking, SRA and mind control programming). I am deep in my healing process, am doing so without a therapist as so few are qualified and my attempts to seek therapy have done more harm than good. I am currently working on improving my coping tools and integrating the subsystem I am working with now (I am Polyfragmented). I look forward to exploring this forum in some depth and connecting with you all.

Amy

 

[pixel]

Welcome aboard, @Amy942!

You will find a cushion of support here.
Look forward to hearing whatever you are willing to share with us :)

 

[bellbird]

Welcome! Glad to have you here :)

 

[Deleted member 34561]

Welcome Amy. Survivor of child sexual exploitation and child pornography here. Can't yet remember if there was an element of SRA involved with my abuse but if not it's still bloody evil isn't it. I'm fortunate that I don't suffer DID like you though I certainly very much relate to what you have experienced. A lot of people have trouble believing this stuff actually happens including therapists so I get what you're saying about therapy sometimes doing more harm than good especially if you have a therapist who doubts the truth of your life. We survivors still have to accept it in spite of it people's denial though don't we? Otherwise we can't heal from it. Please hit me up through PM if you want to discuss things further. I do really understand and I'm happy to try and help you.

Bless ya

Boudicca xx

 

[ladee]

Welcome @Amy942 , I've also had to do a lot of my healing without a T, so that part I understand. I have read here, the horrors of what you have experienced, and sad and angry you had to endure any of it, but am glad you found this place. Many here are going to relate and even when we don't have the same story, we have the same feelings, doubts, nightmares, ect. So you are not alone. This is a huge healing place when we allow our self to read others and see where we connect.
Glad you are here, if not glad for the reason.

 

[Jonnyhi]

HI amy :)
dont worry i will try my best to help u
it sounds horrable what heppend
how are you are you ok
i hateit when bad things happen
hey please can u tell me just if u need help explain ur feelings and message me do this at any time.


thank you,

 

[littleoc]

Hello, and welcome!

I get the therapist thing. But I will say, after several attempts, I did end up finding a good one. Whenever you're well enough to just be able to search, maybe then you can find one. :)

 

[Justmehere]

Welcome to the forums! I hope you find great support here.

I advise strong caution about any requests for contact with members off the forum. Something to keep in mind: Members take note everyone is not who you may think

 

[shimmerz]

A lot of people have trouble believing this stuff actually happens including therapists

Yeah, me too with a similar background. So terribly sorry you went through that.

 

[Teamwork]

Welcome. Glad to hear you’re making progress on a difficult journey. There are so few able to say what their background is in their intro, so well done for being able to do that. Having a shared background would be keen to hear about things you’ve done to help. Im a long way from integration. Still trying to get everyone in the system to share info. May I ask if you have a system that occurred because of what was done to you as well as one that was programmed in?