Intro

[seeking serenity]

I am 24 and i have CPTSD. I have been in therapy for almost two years focused on trauma, and have recently realized there was a lot more suppressed incidents. I am "doing the work".
I am an addict and an escape artist from reality. Being in recovery, feeling again, facing my demons is all new. I have been having severe anxiety attacks daily. Its not easy, and its hard to find people who I can talk about my struggles.

I am starting to see change taking place in my life that I never thought I could have. So I know its worth reaching out in many directions

 

[suzie q]

Welcome Touch of grey, to the Forum!!

I can relate to your daily feelings of anxiety, especially since you are processing your trauma. I agree that, "in doing the work", things in life can become very sensitive and uncomfortable.

I too am a recovering addict and definately was (still am in some cases) an escape artist from reality. I have found that my running away never seemed to work completely while dealing with my past. It always seemed to find a way to come out of me in one unhealthy behavior or another!! (Crap!) Something I learned while processing my "demons" was that they will not kill me or make me permanantly insane. (My biggest fear). Walking through and processing them seemed to be the only way to make them stop having power over me and my life.

I was always told in my therapy to, "trust the process". Damn, I hate that saying, but it turned out to be so true for me. I hope in your "processing" you find your answers and healing. The forum has given me many extra tools to help that process. May it offer you the same in your journey to healing!! See ya around the forum...suzie q

 

[seeking serenity]

Thanks for your feed back! This is the first forum I have joined.
I can Identify with what you shared, It helps to hear from others, and it reminds me that the work I am doing is what will allow me to heal.

 

[Vee Lagrome]

I'm glad you are reaching out to the forum just as I have. I also am living with CPTSD, so I can appreciate what a struggle it is at times (you know, when feeling kind of sad and 'bleh' is actually a pretty good day for you). I'm also a new member, but I've found that this forum is probably the best one I've seen so far and I've tried other PTSD forums, depression forums, suicide forums, whatever I could find (I actually found this by google searching "help! I'm feeling extremely suicidal and I have PTSD).
After reading some of the other posts, I couldn't help but cry in sheer relief that I wasn't alone in the world with what I'm going through. I know you will experience the same feeling of relief that several other people have said they felt after reading some of the threads and posting. I wish you the best of luck in everything you do and hope you find comfort on this forum and in life. :)

 

[seeking serenity]

Thanks, so far It has helped remind myself that I am not "crazy". I am not alone and that there are many ways I can take care of myself. Like wise, I hope the best for you on your journey!

 

[blueangel371115]

welcome