Intro

[Sarg]

Crew,
Got almost 2000hrs in C-130s, mostly 1000 combat. Know the sleeping with one eye open waiting for that call to go up. From the tone and tempo of your post can tell you've got a great deal of anxiety. Know that road and travel it often. Anxiety is my worst problem.

Get to the VA and try to find something to bring that anxiety down so you can think clearly. Don't make any life changing decisions while you're so pumped up, you'll probably regret it later.

We've got an outstanding group of guys here, so rant, scream, cry do what ever it takes to get the load off. We've been there and back.

Sarg

 

[Ned]

Crewstick. You have to make a datum point. Put down a marker and say from now on it's not meant to be crap.
A marker you can refer to. And please make your own intro because you can start (here) from there, and that'll be better for you.

 

[Anglesachse]

Can`t add to what the others have said, so just welcome Medic5 and Crew mate

 

[crewstick]

Thanks, I'm reading the forums, and will be back on here from time to time. You guys rock.

 

[Fargo1]

Greetings Medic5 and Crewstick!

Like Anglesachse I can't add much either. But welcome and good to have you (if you know what I mean).

 

[crewstick]

It's hard to soar with eagles when you're surrounded by turkeys. In my opinion.

My boss is a career fobbit, and has no clue what it's like to have done more than what was necessary in his office. Today he counseled me on being late to work for a few days. Called me a bad seed, and is seeking repercussions for my behavior.

I self referred myself to all the Doctors to seek help months ago. They've put me on a range of meds that make me hallucinate, sleep late, become moody, and generally not give a f*ck.
I've stopped taking the more harsh ones, only to try to "fit in" at work. I see three doctors a week, talk to a counselor weekly, and my boss doesn't understand what it feels like to wake every hour looking for your pistol, or when you hear loud noises to try to find your body armor, and K-pot to run to the bunkers. I don't sleep for shit, and when I do make it back to bed, naturally I sleep past my first formation.

I want to choke slam him into the ground and bring to his attention what I deal with day to day. I've been back from multiple tours with many certificates of a cheese ments with all the goodies, and he puts his rank on the table and then asks me to explain my actions. He has no clue what the f*ck is going on, and I am of lesser rank.

Do I raise my voice to be heard, or do I eat shit because he's a higher ranking douchbag.

I explained in painstaking detail my problems to him , and he shuns me for having to hear what he thinks is bullshit. I want to see his eyes bulge as I choke him the f*ck out, and then revive him because I know how, only to tell him he still wouldn't know how to pour piss out of a boot if the instructions were on the heel.

Valium, Xanax, Zoloft, and strong meditation don't seem to help. I'm sharpening all my knives daily. You can shave with any of them. What's next I say?

Do they have a place for dudes that just can't get past their lost friends, and the remains of those same friends in ammo cans I carried, because there wasn't enough for a bag?

I obviously am talking to trained professionals, but, I'm afraid to tell them how I really feel, because I want to maintain my 2nd amendment right to bear arms when I do leave the military.

Thanks for letting me vent.

 

[crewstick]

If I'm posting in the wrong forum please let me know, I'll go where I'm supposed to go then.

 

[Jimmy1]

Crew, if you want, make a separate intro that way everyone can ask you questions if they have any.
As for Venting, just use the veterans only area, or under anger. Just make your own thread.

 

[Zipperhead]

Vent away.

 

[reddevil1111]

we all hijack threads... its just rare to see someone hijakc thier own...(GOD! im f*cking funny!)

You need to try to keep it in check. Even you know that deep down. I hit a Major. I almost got kicked out. I had a sea daddy that bailed me out and I lost a stripe and some pay. My discharge reads honarable. No one knows unless they can read my dd214 or SRB to see the njp on there. DD214 shows delay in reciving a good conduct medal (automatic every 2 years your a good boy)

I got out without as much trouble. I was wounded and kicked to the curb like trash. I wish you luck in sticking it out.

 

[Need an Oasis]

Hey Medic5, welcome.

We can never have enough medics I say!

(y)

 

[willis williams]

Welcome medic5, and crewstick.