Intro?

[Bryan1]

Hey guys i am suppose to do an introduction so here it goes.

Im Bryan,a vet, husband, father.. I am 23, feel like im 40...

i served in Afghanistan, in a smalllll little cop near the border.

i dont really know where to start, with an intro that is... but i have been diagnosed with ptsd, anxiety, depression... and like most people am awaiting my results to see if i can get service connected disability, Everyday, every minute actually is a battle for me, most of the time i respond to everything with anger, but in reality im just desperatly looking for an inner peace, where i dont have to yell, be angry, afraid, and freaked out all at the same time. hopefully, i can use this as some sort of "coping mechanism", because all the coctails of meds and therapists, and all the bullshit, well lets face it, it just doesnt cut it for me, for now anyways. I like most of you can attest to im sure, just want all of the anger, depression, anxiety.. to stop. for good, but for now im living with and trying to cope....

 

[combatgoldfish]

Welcome brother.

 

[dutchiedelta]

Welcome Bryan.

 

[Grizzly]

Welcome

 

[Sleeping Dragon]

Welcome my Brother,

Posting here is one step in the right direction. There will be many more on your road back home. Although those steps may not seem to help at the time, each one is very important. When you put them all together they'll make a big difference.

Watch the videos, read the posts and keep posting yourself. As you do you'll begin to see what we mean when we talk about those baby steps.

SD

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Welcome Bryan.

 

[Jimmy1]

Hey guys i am suppose to do an introduction so here it goes.

Im Bryan,a vet, husband, father.. I am 23, feel like im 40...

i served in Afghanistan, in a smalllll little cop near the border.

i dont really know where to start, with an intro that is... but i have been diagnosed with ptsd, anxiety, depression... and like most people am awaiting my results to see if i can get service connected disability, Everyday, every minute actually is a battle for me, most of the time i respond to everything with anger, but in reality im just desperatly looking for an inner peace, where i dont have to yell, be angry, afraid, and freaked out all at the same time. hopefully, i can use this as some sort of "coping mechanism", because all the coctails of meds and therapists, and all the bullshit, well lets face it, it just doesnt cut it for me, for now anyways. I like most of you can attest to im sure, just want all of the anger, depression, anxiety.. to stop. for good, but for now im living with and trying to cope....

Mate, I wish I could give you an answer you would like to hear, but there is no outstanding news. There is good news though.

What you have is plain old simple PTSD, but you knew that.

Anger is your coping mechanism. Think of a Skunk, or a Porcupine, etc, If they don't want to be around anyone they let their stink go, or put up their quills, well anger is your quills.

The good news which I am going to mention is that it does get better if you put the work in. Go to therapy no matter how sucky it feels. Part of your body will be saying 'Get me the f*ck out of here', but that is your defence mechanism too. If you persist and work at it, you will learn all the grounding techniques and coping skills.

Medication is a personal choice, but sometimes it is needed in the early days just to quieten your mind to enable you to deal with some issues.

Self medication is not an answer, although I am starting to believe that I should be saying do what you f*cking like.

In the end it's each to their own, but there are some great medications out there to take the edge off.

Hope to hear more from you mate.

 

[OldDoorGunner]

Welcome to the Farm Bryan.;)

 

[5line]

welcome!

 

[Spock]

...in reality im just desperatly looking for an inner peace, where i dont have to yell, be angry, afraid, and freaked out all at the same time. hopefully, i can use this as some sort of "coping mechanism"...

Welcome home Bryan. Check out the media section. Fact is, you can get there but we call it "baby steps" and it is not easy, otherwise no one would be part of this "international" group. Coping is multiple skills used across multiple situations daily. Then you break down and get back up. Once you get used to the cycle it is less a bitch to recover from until it is and you still do. Find a reason to be better: kids, spouse, passion, many things over time, whatever, and leverage it/them. The beginning is hardest time, just like primary school.
Peace!

 

[BaMuoiBa]

Welcome Bryan,

Pull up a chair Brother your among friends.

Ba

 

[19K30]

Welcome Bryan

Some of the issues you have will resolve in time however it is best to talk to like minded veterans that you will find on this site. As far as your ratings and stuff goes just remember it will feel like they are trying to hurt you rather than help you. What I mean by that is just the fact of how long it will take them to decide your case and make a decision. The va is very SLOW.