Introducing....(Drum Roll Please!)...Me

[midi]

Welcome!

It's a horrible shame that most governments do not treat mental health care as a preventive measure. It's good that you've found this place--it'll really help!

 

[fin]

Many Thanks to all your welcomings,


I have been on a rollercoaster the last few days and this morning I met with my psychologist and it was cool. Although I was pretty much all over the place I wanted to try to get across how much messing around has happened over years.
I dont think it was heard.
But I received a message from a trauma help clinic from a call I had made before christmas and they were great. None of what I was saying (about treatment) was news to them.
I'm not quite sure but maybe I need to pursue this road. And Im really not quite sure How or if I will or even be able to pursue it.

I feel so much less alone...Thankyou all
am going to try to sleep now

 

[fairandcold]

I agree, the holidays are a real trigger for me.

As if wasn't bad enough that during Christmas I'm bombarded with images of this ideal family and what not, I have to go to my hubby's christmas and pretend everything is okay!

Anywho, it's really nice to meet you Fin. Take care of yourself.

 

[Dylan]

Hi & Welcome Fin,

I, too, have used a sense of humor as a (successful) coping skill. It's one of the positive ones I created instinctively!

Great to have you here....I enjoyed your drum roll :wink:

-Dylan

 

[dust]

Fin,

I swear, when I get out of this **** I am going to try my hardest (well at least try) to voice my opinion about how I was (not) treated by the NHS. It is as if therapy for PTSD is a bleeding luxury!

I'm in the East.

I'm now recovering from F/B and it makes me so sad that there was so little support out there and I just had to survive by my own will. I'm practically traumatised by it! No advice was offered and I wasn't in any state to do the research, so just muddled through somehow. I hope you get the help you need from the trauma help clinic.

dust

 

[fin]

dust....hey.....I started to try to make a documentary about PTSD and maybe treatmet issues... but stopped...but yes I really think somebodies got to.

Am writing this here as its my intro and I dont really know where else to put it at the moment as I may start to ramble so at least am not rambling all over someone else's thread.

Today I feel like crap...I feel empty and tired. I had my assessment results meeting last week it didnt show anything new, which I guess is a relief.

The thing is my new psychologist didnt even begin to say how she would be starting treatment, what it would be or anything like that.

And I feel aprehensive about this weeks meeting as a result.

I am starting BIG TIME to think that the EMDR specialist I had begun to prep with in 2007 was maybe right about my H/A (health authority)
I am trying really hard not to go down this road...but I just feel that this is my last chance.

Am pretty sure also that all the messing about (over years) is now a trigger.

I have been trying to be soo positive and feel at times almost like some puppy (not the right word but I am "word challenged" at the moment please understand-nothing against puppys) happy for anything they have offered, tail wagging, sitting up etc...
you get the idea i hope.

but she's going to have to be good...for all the unprofessionalism of the EMDR therapist...I was confident in her ability to work with this. And maybe she wasnt being so unprofessional afterall... maybe she was right to "warn" me even if it wasnt in quite the right way.