Sufferer Introduction: Hi

[littlelotte]

Hi,

I was diagnosed with PTSD about eight months ago. Some life events triggered it after almost a decade of suppressing the trauma. Like probably everyone else here, I hate dealing with emotional stuff. I really want to go back to burring it, but I know that is unhealthy and I'm not sure I could any longer. So, I'm trying to work through the years of trauma and my counselor has been great. I still have flashbacks and nightmares daily, it amazes me how I can feel things happening to me that are not.

Any advice from others would be greatly appreciated, along with just getting to know someone else who is going through something similar.

Thanks!

 

[Nighthawk]

Welcome to the forum.:) There is alot of great information on the forum . Take some time to look around.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Welcome to the forum. Sending :hug:s from the UK.

Laurie

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Hi x oh my gosh I can't believe how identical your post is to my story x identical to you I have really struggled to face my demons, my attitude was I don't need to relive and am happy my traumas are buried but unfortunately they weren't , they were suppressed traumas and emotions that I couldn't face , didn't want to face and didn't know how to. Unfortunately out of nowhere , although my dr has said due to my early menopause and my hormones these traumas have surfaced I was left on a daily basis with horrendous flashbacks, triggers , nightmares, anxiety, anger depression in fact the list was endless. I had no choice but to face these horrible traumatic and ugly traumas . I really struggled with them, it started of with a really up nd down roller coaster? My family , my job, my friends and my life totally went into disarray and I hated it. After long battles I agreed to therapy and spent three months having EMDR, I faced horrible horrible ugly sickening and scary traumas and relived them all, however almost a year a later I have managed to cope and accept that I had to face these and have learnt to manage them. By no means am I fully cured because I really don't believe there is such a thing but I feel that I'm in a better position mentally and emotionally.
I stil have the occasions when I gonthrough flashbacks and triggers , as a victim of repeated rape and a use in all forms I think this would be pretty normal, but I have learnt to deal with these, it wasn't , isn't and never will be easy but in a strange ironic way I'm happy that I faced and dealt with my traumas when I did. All I can say is don't expect results overnight , don't set your expectations really high and don't feel pressured into everything being k in a short space of time , it will be a very hard journey but in the end hopefully you will see some changes in the way you deal with your every day life!!! Good luck and god bless x in my thoughts and prayers . Ps these are my personal opinions others may differ .x

 

[Wounded Scribe]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[ghotiff]

Welcome.

I too recently had to face how much my childhood was impacting my parenting, and then accept that I needed help.

The biggest lesson I learnt in the beginning was to go slow, as to not overwhelm myself.

 

[littlelotte]

Welcome.

I too recently had to face how much my childhood was impacting my parenting, and then accept that I needed help.

The biggest lesson I learnt in the beginning was to go slow, as to not overwhelm myself.

One thing that has been stressed is that I really need to work through things now so I don't have to work through them when I have kids. Just lending more credibility to that need.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[TonyG]

Welcome,
You are not alone, I have had my trauma locked away for 30 years and it's been eating me up inside, three months ago I started theraphy and it has not been easy but I am starting to feel a bit better, For me the anxiety is the worst part of the whole process,

 

[littlelotte]

Welcome,
You are not alone, I have had my trauma locked away for 30 years and it's been eating me up inside, three months ago I started theraphy and it has not been easy but I am starting to feel a bit better, For me the anxiety is the worst part of the whole process,

The anxiety is miserable. I'm not much on taking meds, but I gave in and am taking one to help with the anxiety.

 

[TonyG]

I tryed to go through theraphy without meds but the more I got into details about my trauma the worse the anxiety got, I folded after a month of very little sleep and extreme anxiety, I almost feel normal most of the time now with slight anxiety that spikes on bad days but it's better than where I was.

 

[littlelotte]

The meds just take the edge off for me, I guess I'm not on a high enough dose to do more.

I didn't take meds while my T helped me drudge 'everything' (I'm sure it's not really everything) up. I gave in when it got to the point I was nauseous and having intestinal issues from all the stress and anxiety caused by my boss. He was abusive to the point he became part of my PTSD.