Upside Down Eagle
Diamond Member
Hey people!
I signed up here because I don't personally know anyone with PTSD, and I thought it would be great for me to find people who have these symptoms in common with me. My experience is that people around me mostly associate this kind of disorder with severe situations experienced in war, but they seem to forget that even the house next door could be the scene for very painful events, which was my situation. Five years after my ordeal I still had recurring nighmares and flashbacks, and used to spontaneously combust in intense anger with anything I classified as a threat. As the symptoms did not settle by themselves, I went into intense group therapy and after a year I felt much better, even though the characteristics of the disorder still tend to come back when I am faced with difficult situations.
Even though I experience these things because of the past, they only constitute a small part of me. The other part of me is stubborn but positive, very fond of the people who support me and have come to know me through and through over the years. I have lived in different areas during my life, including Central America and Europe. Currently, I'm back in the Netherlands for a study of Cultural Anthropology, and with hopes that I can manage to complete it in a satisfactory way. Because of my years in the exterior and the problems I went through, I have developed an interest for the small, beautiful things in life, and for a deep sense of spirituality. People my age usually have the conviction that spirituality and religions are lame, and tend to question my reasons, but I have seen such uncanny love, strength and passion for live in myself and the people around me that I find myself incapable of seeing this world as a solely rational entity which doesn't allow for interpretations related to the soul and heart.
I signed up here because I don't personally know anyone with PTSD, and I thought it would be great for me to find people who have these symptoms in common with me. My experience is that people around me mostly associate this kind of disorder with severe situations experienced in war, but they seem to forget that even the house next door could be the scene for very painful events, which was my situation. Five years after my ordeal I still had recurring nighmares and flashbacks, and used to spontaneously combust in intense anger with anything I classified as a threat. As the symptoms did not settle by themselves, I went into intense group therapy and after a year I felt much better, even though the characteristics of the disorder still tend to come back when I am faced with difficult situations.
Even though I experience these things because of the past, they only constitute a small part of me. The other part of me is stubborn but positive, very fond of the people who support me and have come to know me through and through over the years. I have lived in different areas during my life, including Central America and Europe. Currently, I'm back in the Netherlands for a study of Cultural Anthropology, and with hopes that I can manage to complete it in a satisfactory way. Because of my years in the exterior and the problems I went through, I have developed an interest for the small, beautiful things in life, and for a deep sense of spirituality. People my age usually have the conviction that spirituality and religions are lame, and tend to question my reasons, but I have seen such uncanny love, strength and passion for live in myself and the people around me that I find myself incapable of seeing this world as a solely rational entity which doesn't allow for interpretations related to the soul and heart.
