Hi all. My name is Ana, I'm 48, female. Have been through a lot of "bad" stuff in my life including childhood abuse, war, homelesness, losing my first baby. Have seen many doctors, been on various meds, but none of that helped me as much as getting to know about PTSD, depression and psychology in general. I've made some changes in my life and it's helped me deal with a lot of my demons, except the ones from my childhood. I just can't seem to be able to get rid of those no matter what I try and it's become especially challenging during last two years.
I don't think my problems are the worst, nor special in any way. Actually, one of the things I've realized is that all the events in my life make me what I am today, with all my virtues and flaws. What was in past cannot be changed, I can only change myself. But, it's so difficult sometimes, my childhood haunts me all my life and I've come here hoping to share with others who have similar problems since there's no one in real life I could talk to about it without feelings of shame and fear.
I don't think my problems are the worst, nor special in any way. Actually, one of the things I've realized is that all the events in my life make me what I am today, with all my virtues and flaws. What was in past cannot be changed, I can only change myself. But, it's so difficult sometimes, my childhood haunts me all my life and I've come here hoping to share with others who have similar problems since there's no one in real life I could talk to about it without feelings of shame and fear.
