unsungresonant
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Hi.
I am a 33 year old man.
I have a diagnosis of PTSD (although I sometimes think of it as c-PTSD, which is just my own thinking). My childhood, mostly from age 7 to around 18, was really rough mostly due to the way my dad treated me.
I started experiencing a lot of anxiety and then depression when I was 18 or 19. Long story short, I started therapy around 19, then got put on an antidepressant, then went through much worse depression and got tried on a whole bunch of different meds until I was about 23. Moderate to severe depression the whole way, with few breaks. Finally my psychiatrist suggested I try EMDR, and within 2-3 months of starting, my depression almost completely lifted. This was when I was 23. Unfortunately I still have some meds from that time period and a med or two I picked up along the way, but I've been trending towards removing meds lately (with my doctor), since they have never seemed all that helpful. This seems consistent with recommendations about PTSD.
I was married when I was 22 and my daughter was born when I was 24 (EDIT: forgot to mention, I have most of the custody of her). I stopped EMDR when she was born.. mostly due to stress. I unfortunately had some traumas and really unfortunate events happen in the following few years, and at age 31 or so I started EMDR again, only stopping a few months after a move to another state (EDIT: at this point, I received my diagnosis.. I knew about PTSD and trauma, but did not know what to call myself). I'm doing therapy weekly now. Got divorced at age 30 due to infidelity but I think my ex was a pretty terrible person anyway, so I'm glad we're split up. I had a son at age 25, but he died after a month due to SIDS.
EMDR has been extremely helpful to me--I am really going through amazing transformations, and I'm incredibly thankful for that. I'm glad I started it up again.
Lately I've started to be a lot more self aware and be aware of my emotional side as not just this weird muffled unconscious thing... I know that I hide behind my rationality. I see my rational, clever, smart side as my adult side, and my in-the-moment, sensory, emotional side as my child side. I'm able to self regulate a lot better, and tons of my triggers have been vanquished. I still have a lot of challenges, though.. I randomly found this forum doing some searches and it seems like people here 'get' the sort of thing I'm going through, so here I am.
I am a 33 year old man.
I have a diagnosis of PTSD (although I sometimes think of it as c-PTSD, which is just my own thinking). My childhood, mostly from age 7 to around 18, was really rough mostly due to the way my dad treated me.
I started experiencing a lot of anxiety and then depression when I was 18 or 19. Long story short, I started therapy around 19, then got put on an antidepressant, then went through much worse depression and got tried on a whole bunch of different meds until I was about 23. Moderate to severe depression the whole way, with few breaks. Finally my psychiatrist suggested I try EMDR, and within 2-3 months of starting, my depression almost completely lifted. This was when I was 23. Unfortunately I still have some meds from that time period and a med or two I picked up along the way, but I've been trending towards removing meds lately (with my doctor), since they have never seemed all that helpful. This seems consistent with recommendations about PTSD.
I was married when I was 22 and my daughter was born when I was 24 (EDIT: forgot to mention, I have most of the custody of her). I stopped EMDR when she was born.. mostly due to stress. I unfortunately had some traumas and really unfortunate events happen in the following few years, and at age 31 or so I started EMDR again, only stopping a few months after a move to another state (EDIT: at this point, I received my diagnosis.. I knew about PTSD and trauma, but did not know what to call myself). I'm doing therapy weekly now. Got divorced at age 30 due to infidelity but I think my ex was a pretty terrible person anyway, so I'm glad we're split up. I had a son at age 25, but he died after a month due to SIDS.
EMDR has been extremely helpful to me--I am really going through amazing transformations, and I'm incredibly thankful for that. I'm glad I started it up again.
Lately I've started to be a lot more self aware and be aware of my emotional side as not just this weird muffled unconscious thing... I know that I hide behind my rationality. I see my rational, clever, smart side as my adult side, and my in-the-moment, sensory, emotional side as my child side. I'm able to self regulate a lot better, and tons of my triggers have been vanquished. I still have a lot of challenges, though.. I randomly found this forum doing some searches and it seems like people here 'get' the sort of thing I'm going through, so here I am.
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