Is Stupidity Symptom Of Ptsd

[Kristopher]

I would like to thank everyone that has posted their views so far. No one has judged me which I am thankful for. I am seeing my psychologist tomorrow and have a appointment with a therapist on thursday. I was hopping that chatting with other people with similar problems would help me open up to a therapist and I think it has helped a bit. Please keep the feedback coming, I would like to hear more. The MDMA and Tramadol are going with me to my psychologist tomorrow to be disposed of properly.

 

[ghotiff]

What I sense is frustration at where you are at and desperation to be better (or at least different). So you took a high risk path and it backfired.

What helps me when I'm in that state is to cling onto something that I can actively do that I believe will help in the long term. For me it's focusing on doing lots of self soothing, even if it doesn't feel like it's doing anything, I know it is, just slowly. If I'm able I also do things to help others, eg household chores to reduce the workload on my partner. I find that doing chores "for" my partner can make me feel a bit better about myself.

I hope that helps somehow.

 

[Kristopher]

You described exactly how I feel, frustrated and desperate, and it all backfired right into my face. I have been painting the inside of my houses for the few days now, and that has help me relax a little. Sharing what happened to me on My PTSD seems to have help as well, discussing my feeling seems to be a hard thing for me to do. I think I will be posting more in the future on My PTSD. Since wednesday it's be a emotional rollercoaster ride for me. I feel like such an idiot and I am sure the MDMA withdrawals are helping as well. The one good thing that came out of this whole incident, is that it has lit a fire under my ass to get my issues worked out. It not fair to me or especially my wife for my actions.

 

[joeylittle]

Are you telling me that I need to get my wife to lock me in a room well I sleep, away from her and the dogs, so I don't break there necks in the middle of the night?

I just wanted to say, there was a time when I had to do some very extreme things to keep myself from wandering and self-harming while sleeping; I doubt I'm the only person on this site who has had to lock themselves up in a room overnight. No, it's not ideal - but look at it from the other side; if you'd get some relief from knowing that you weren't going to bang into anyone else, other than yourself, if you have an intrusive memory - that relief might really be worth it. I guess I'm saying, there are some practical things we all need to do at one time or another that might look a little nutty to the outside world, but if they help us out, who cares?

I'm so glad to hear you are going to give over the drugs and see your clinicians this week. And there's a trauma diary area on this site - two actually, one for members, one for anyone - you can start a diary to have a place to write down anything and everything you need to, in order to release some of the inner pressure. It can be really helpful.

 

[Ronin]

I guess I'm saying, there are some practical things we all need to do at one time or another that might look a little nutty to the outside world, but if they help us out, who cares?

This. In essence, taking precautions & protective measures doesn't say you're a nutbag. It says you're a responsible thinking person.