Is there anyone else who feels like in every accomplishment, ptsd shows up and steals a piece?

[what's the point]

Is this part of recovery and adaptation i wonder... I struggle with relationships. My neighbour has made malicious allegations against me, and it's threatening criminal liability, my career and housing. All ahead of an upcoming trial. I am in despair, despite the trauma of the investigation process, becoming unwell with ptsd, and moving from full time employment and full time masters study, to SSP, to tribunal for pip, and adapted working, I finally felt my life moving forward, actually get out of bed, navigate my ptsd better, don't need to sit in silence, go outside, did the garden etc, .... I just honestly have little fight left in me, when I had and am still battling for stability and forward movement, improvement to health management and support.... heck I don't even know why I'm here, chat gpt told me to speak to real people and I guess I'm looking for some reassurance in others or even similar experiences that might provide insight or hope. Ive accomplished lots including career progression , just, how easy can it be for those to go unnoticed eh even by oneself?. If anyone is reading this, dont forget the little things too (note to self also) Thanks for reading

 

[arfie]

I just honestly have little fight left in me, when I had and am still battling for stability and forward movement, improvement to health management and support...

is "fighting for peace" an oxymoron? more and more, i believe that battling for stability and fighting for recovery is equally oxymoronic. in my own life, it was violence, both emotional and physical, which ushered me to the ptsd bandwagon in the first place. learning how to sit peacefully with it is my greater goal.

having achieved the building of an effective program and support doesn't preclude the stress of current day stresses. the lawsuit from your neighbor sounds like a doozy. it only gives me extra clues on how to manage the added stress.

Ive accomplished lots including career progression , just, how easy can it be for those to go unnoticed eh even by oneself?.

it is as easy as falling off a log to not notice my own accomplishments. worse, i can hear a thousand compliments and let a single insult steal the entire show.

do i ever feel like my ptsd shows up for every accomplishment to steal a piece? alas, it always seems to show up at every celebration. every party needs a pooper? i shoot to keep is to just a party crasher.

 

[Metropolitan Nomad]

Yes it does for me. For everything’s I’ve achieved I pay a price with PTSD

 

[what's the point]

Yes it does for me. For everything’s I’ve achieved I pay a price with PTSD

So sorry. You and me both it seems.. especially at the moment, likely many too I guess. It's nice to have a community who "get it" so to speak. I'm trying to navigate a little better, additonal stress doesnt help obviously... well wishes to you

 

[what's the point]

is "fighting for peace" an oxymoron?

question answered

 

[what's the point]

is "fighting for peace" an oxymoron? more and more, i believe that battling for stability and fighting for recovery is equally oxymoronic. in my own life, it was violence, both emotional and physical, which ushered me to the ptsd bandwagon in the first place. learning how to sit peacefully with it is my greater goal.

having achieved the building of an effective program and support doesn't preclude the stress of current day stresses. the lawsuit from your neighbor sounds like a doozy. it only gives me extra clues on how to manage the added stress.

it is as easy as falling off a log to not notice my own accomplishments. worse, i can hear a thousand compliments and let a single insult steal the entire show.

do i ever feel like my ptsd shows up for every accomplishment to steal a piece? alas, it always seems to show up at every celebration. every party needs a pooper? i shoot to keep is to just a party crasher.

Thank you such a powerful insight! And a smile too, thanks

 

[Lost in the Woods]

Me too.

 

[Susan Jane]

I just honestly have little fight left in me, when I had and am still battling for stability and forward movement, improvement to health management and support.... heck I don't even know why I'm here, chat gpt told me to speak to real people and I guess I'm looking for some reassurance in others

I totally understand, I started a downward spiral in January and I am working my way out. I was going forward, and if I am honest even though it is a real struggle, this episode is lighter than the last, but I am still unable to be at work, at the moment. Chat gpt? It doesn't have "it", and therefore the advise is not always on target for the stage one finds themselves in. In fact not all therapists are good at their jobs. You are real, I am real and we are struggling through different things at the moment ....that add stressors to an underlying "challenge". I use the word "challenge" because I really am sick of labeling"it" Is it PTSD, anxiety, or depression blah blah??? It is a every day challenge for me. I only know that I have stressors that isolate me from other people. I can be more vulnerable when dealing with things. Do not ever forget, the stuff you are dealing with would stress the most "stable" person. Some of us with this "challenge" feel we cannot handle things as well as others, but the truth is life is not always easy and roadblocks appear for most people. I try to see them as the larger lesson to get through to stabler times, that said, I hate it when someone tells me that, so I hope it doesn't offend anyone. My intention is to share, support and tell others ...you are not alone. That is what saves me, knowing I am not alone in this

 

[Metropolitan Nomad]

So sorry. You and me both it seems.. especially at the moment, likely many too I guess. It's nice to have a community who "get it" so to speak. I'm trying to navigate a little better, additonal stress doesnt help obviously... well wishes to you

I appreciate the kind words. There are many things I've done and didn't do which I'm ashamed of and the flashbacks are my punishment if you will. On the surface I seem relatively normal and competent but underneath I'm a damn mess

 

[Friday]

Is there anyone else who feels like in every accomplishment, ptsd shows up and steals a piece?

Only when I’m symptomatic.

When I’m asymptomatic that’s like asking if my birthday ruins the rest of the year, or tuesdays steal a piece of the rest of the week, or if sandals make shoes regret being sewn. Complete nonissue.

AKA ANYTHING I’m currently struggling with weighs in on any/every accomplishment. Competing with a fever/flu, is different from competing with an injury, but both? Weigh in. Not just stealing, but OWNING a piece. Because I’m not at my best. So it’s an added factor, the increased difficulty.

 

[anthony]

Is this part of recovery and adaptation i wonder

No need to wonder, yes it is. PTSD will try to keep you down, you have to fight to tell it to f*ck off.