It's All Set, Out Of Office T Appointment.

[Panda Bear]

T and I finalized the time and details of him coming with me to see my dads grave.

It's been an interesting and oddly emotional experience, so much so, that I almost bailed on the whole idea last night. For some reason, I was a sick ball of anxiety and began to freak out at the idea of him being there with me. I'm still struggling with the idea of it today. Deep down, I KNOW if he didn't want to do it, nor thought it was appropriate, he never would have agreed. But he did, and he says that he wants to, and that he is looking forward to it...but it's hard to let it all sink in and believe him.

Just terrified! His proximity to me, not being in the office, standing there....all that stuff. It's scary.

 

[Changing4Best]

Do you know some grounding techniques? I'd use them in this instance just to be there enough to understand what your T says to you, when he says things. Then just let the cards "roll" and see what happens. I do think this will be a theraputic experience for you, so don't bail out! I will pray for you now too, that it all works out for you and that you gain some positive things from the experience. I hope that is OK.

 

[Panda Bear]

@SheilaKathy

I know lots of grounding techniques....tons. Though it will still be hard to be present and hear him. He's going to be there, present, but not really speak so much.