Just Got Home!!

[Tiger]

I apologise, I am so sorry, truly I am!! I am so distraught right now, I just wondered if anyone had 5 minutes to talk to me? I have literally got home in the last hour or so after having spent the best part of 2 days in hospital because of what I did to myself a while ago (As explained in my previous thread in this forum!) and now I am suffering major flashbacks from when I was a kid!! I have been on a drip, I have been invaded by the nurses and it's not over yet! I have a serious problem that they discovered and I have to see my GP about what treatment I will have to go through!! I am very, very embarrassed and in quite a bit of pain!! I just need someone to hug until I can cry all my anguish, out! I'm frightened about what's going to happen!! I don't know how to cope with what has happened and what will happen!! I am so anxious and feel so alone In this!! I am so, so sorry, so, so sorry!! :inpain:

 

[user27357]

hang in there and remember that things can only get better if you are still here when they do. If you react to this time in your life by doing something permanent it never changes, but if you find a way to make it through another day and another day and another day after that you will be rewarded by the opportunity for change, likely change for the better. Hope is here for you if you can find the strength and resolve to relax and let it happen.

 

[Tiger]

Thanks!! I appreciate your reply!! I'm just a quivering bag of nervousness and tears right now!! :cry::cry::cry:Everything hurts inside and out!! I'm not really glad I am home now, I'm feeling so vulnerable!!

 

[Jane.l]

Try and focus on what you need right now - do you have pain killers is there anything you can do to get more comfortable? Are you alone ? Do you have friend who would come and keep you company for a while? Do you have a T you could email ? What helps you stay present? The whole thing of being in the hospital environment and then coming home is a weird adjustment anyway. Try to keep to what you need today and take each step as you have too - sorry things are tough but you can get through.

 

[Tiger]

Thankyou for talking to me!! I'm not really supposed to take painkillers if it's a tolerable pain apparently!! So the Dr says!! I am alone at the moment because it's the weekend and no one seems to be about!! I'm embarrassed to see anyone because I have been very emotional and resemble a panda at the moment! I did see a member of staff from the mental health services and she is going to call me next week so I have to keep it together for the weekend by any means to get through and I hope it's ok to talk here to help get through it!!! I am still feeling effects from the treatment I received, so it's rough all around!!

 

[Jane.l]

Could you take some neurofen or something just to take the edge off?
Good idea to talk on here hopefully that will help you see you are not alone.
I wouldn't be embarrassed about being emotional if you have a good friend you can talk to, even if it's on the phone. Did you have a general? they can make you very weepy.

Great that the nurse is going to call hopefully she will help you through.

Try and get lots of rest and pamper yourself for a while.

 

[Underdog]

I'm not sure what your scenario is, but there are people there for you (like us who understand what you are feeling inside). I know personally what is like to be feeling so crazy and down on myself that you don't anyone to witness it. Reaching out to close friends and getting hugs or someone to hold your hand through this takes a lot of strength and courage, but human touch can be very therapeutic as well. There are moments where I just can't stand for anyone to see me in the state I am in, but I am learning that reaching out to close friends to come sit with me is sometimes the best thing I can, regardless of how terrified I feel of that experience as well.

In the meanwhile, what is your basic instinct right now telling you that you need? As long as it is not self-harmful in anyway, listen to it. Do you need a hug? Ask for it. Do you need to lay down and cuddle with pillows and blankets? Do it. You might also try taking a bath with Epsom salts if you have them. The magnesium is quickly absorbed into the body with a soaking and can help relaxation as well.

 

[Tiger]

I don't know if it's helping, but I'm squeezing a big, soft teddy as tightly as I can and just crying!! I have the TV on in the background!! I feel as if I'm never going to stop weeping!! Thank you for talking, I guess I don't really want to be on my own at the moment!! I was on 'gas and air' while in hospital to help with the pain, but it made me feel very faint and strange!! I have never had the Gas thing before!! I don't know if it can effect anything else??

 

[Jane.l]

Have a good cry and then try and get some sleep. Hope your teddy bear helps.