Great topic!
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
"Hurt"-NIN
This next one was slightly adapted by me when I was 15, it fit so closely what I was feeling while being abused, and was an outlet for my feelings at the time. Here is how I altered it for my needs.
I still fall back on it when the feelings get to be too much.
My life suffocates
Planting seeds of hate
my love, turned to hate
Trapped far beyond my fate
I give,You take
This life that I forsake
Been cheated of my youth
You turned this lie to truth
Pure black, you looked clear
your work is done here
Try getting back at me
Getting back which used to be
Push in,Tear out
Let the beatings begin
Distributor of pain
Your loss becomes my gain
"Harvester of Sorrow"-Metallica
This last one has become my lifeline in the last few days, not only do I identify with the lyrics, But the song is just SO great.
Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse
I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...
You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost
"Lost"-Coldplay