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[disenchanted]

fin,
You smiling makes me smile. And that turned my crappy two days into a good afternoon. Thank you!!!

Cat

 

[fin]

I am glad disenchanted, I wish now I had told you sooner, I hope we can maybe become friends some perhaps at some point. I hope oyu have a good weekend Cat and know please you are not alone. If ever you want to PM me or anything like that I will try to answer, I acnnot always promise to be here, but I will try some and better. And if I can help I will, please know that you dont have to be alone in any of what you are feeling here, many others will maybe feel the same way you do too.

Take care and look after you, be kinder to yourself and try not let PTSD run roughshod over you, it can try to do that sometimes, we have to try to know when it is ok to speak out and say something more than we have had the opportunity to.

This forum is helpingme to do that, I hope you know it can and will do the same for you also. I have read more of your posts here than I have maybe said and I wish I had said more, please continue to write as you are able and feel you want to. And try not ot worry about whether you are here too much by anyone else's standards, we all do what we can, and for me it is helping me move beyond here, to get outside now...which I could never have done comfortably if at all a few months ago.

OK I may have written too much here, I dont know ...so I will stop for aminute and think again about how this is helping me working through, because it is helping me so much now. More again than I had thought possible, I only hope I can keep going. And that is it really it is hope that we can share in here, friendships we make along the way will encourage us but again I come down to hope and trust. I am begining to trust a little better eprhaps now.

Take care of you Cat,
~fin

 

[Mayhem]

Group: Poets of the Fall
Album: Carnival Of Rust (2006)
Song : Gravity


Here at the station,
I'm standing in the rain,
lost in my train of thought
Looking around for
a better time again,
but yesterday ain't running on this track

Unpredictable fortunes,
my past,
lights up my future,
at last,
ending my torture

Like gravity like love,
You get up after you fall
Like gravity like love
I'm not afraid anymore
Like gravity like love,
You get up after you fall,
I ain't afraid no more
ohhhhhhhh yeahhhhh

Out of no reason
I've decided to stay,
present a solution,
to the problem,
Typical of me,
that I concentrate on the destination so much that I miss the journey there and back

Unpredictable fortunes,
my past,
lights up my future,
at last,
ending my torture
ohhh yeahhhhhhh

Like gravity like love,
You get up after you fall
Like gravity like love
I'm not afraid anymore
Like gravity like love,
You get up after you fall,
I ain't afraid no more............

If gravity was love,
if gravity was love,
if gravity was love...

 

[mocum99]

Talk show host by Radiohead- I listen to it alot and I identify so much. It reminds me of that feeling of building up walls... an almost passive aggressive fighting feeling, this anger bottled up ready and waiting. If you want me come and get me, break down the door... that's what you have to do to get to me. And I'm patient (a gun and a pack of sandwiches)

 

[mocum99]

I love tool so so much... also NIN.... I think alot of their stuff focuses around dealing with pain and is appropriate. Also Alice in Chains.

FIN... I had a really difficult time listening to music myself... I still do... I would estimate that over 50% of songs I hear make me cry for some reason or another.

I will share the story of the NIN/Johnny Cash "Hurt" which haunts me to no end because it keeps coming up and has now come up HERE. It sounds unbelievable but we had recently gotten a camera, and there was a video of my boyfriend (who was killed about a week later) playing "Hurt" on his guitar. On the day he died, he picked me up a couple hours before the accident in which he was killed. That was the last song we heard before we got out of the car (the Johnny Cash version- on the radio). It was the last song he heard before he died. I know this because I was with him from then until the momet he passed.

I have tons of songs but here are the lyrics that have been with me and to me describe the life I live now, could be another theme song for PTSD:

Wandering Star by Portishead:

"Please could you stay awhile to share my grief
For its such a lovely day
To have to always feel this way
And the time that I will suffer less
Is when I never have to wake

Wandering stars, for whom it is reserved
The blackness of darkness forever
Wandering stars, for whom it is reserved
The blackness of darkness forever

... Those who have seen the needles eye, now tread
Like a husk, from which all that was, now has fled
And the masks, that the monsters wear
To feed, upon their prey

Wandering stars, for whom it is reserved
The blackness of darkness forever
Wandering stars, for whom it is reserved
The blackness of darkness forever

(always) doubled up inside
Take awhile to shed my grief
(always) doubled up inside
Taunted, cruel.... ...

Wandering stars, for whom it is reserved
The blackness of darkness forever
Wandering stars, for whom it is reserved
The blackness of darkness forever"


Every Day Is Exactly the Same by NIN:

"I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around

Oh, no

[Chorus:]
Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end

[Chorus]

I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday you might find
Well I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind
I'm still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could have been any other way
But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do"

The Rip by Portishead (yep... more Portishead)

"As she walks in the room
Scented and tall
Hesitating once more
And as I take on myself
And the bitterness I felt
I realise that love flows

Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?

Through the glory of life
I will scatter on the floor
Disappointed and sore
And in my thoughts I have bled
For the riddles I've been fed
Another lie moves over

Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?

Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?"


AND finally I will stop (I could go on and on with this) after I share a line from "Destiny" By Zero 7: "I'm bending time, getting back to you"... because I believe all that separates us from those who have left us behind on this earth is just that- time.

I'm sorry because I feel like these lyrics are all depressing so I will end with a wish for peaceful happiness for us all... and, the suggestion (which I was given) to mix it up with some upbeat music to lift your mood. It really works. I am finding Dancehall Reggae very helpful lately :)

 

[fin]

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid


I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you









over and over again fullblast for the rest of my life, I am so fcked right now, it isnt funny. I cant believe that no one else has ever posted these lyrics, I am not wallowing in self pity either maybe this is my letter I dont know. I do know I am freezing at the moment and yet I can see that ouside it is warm and maybe even in here also, I just dont feel it. Maybe I never will again...crap this is on so many levels just *it* over and over again, with each new situation because of so much that fcked me before I could ever stand a chance of survivng on my own. So I guess I am lucky to stilll be here dumb luck huh

 

[Mayhem]

fin,

Who does that song? "Because Of You"

 

[fin]

Hey Mayhem, it is good to see you again.

Kelly Clarkson does the song of the lyrics I posted here. She wrote it at about 16 originally and then polished it up later. It was about the breakup of her parents marriage amongst other things. But that wasn't why I set it out here, I think it speaks on many levels these words of hers.

take care Mayhem, & have a good weekend :) it is good to see you here. And thankyou for asking me this question.

 

[fin]

Sweet About Me -Gabriella Cilmi

Ooh watching me -Hanging by A string this time!
Don't, easily -climax of a perfect lie
Ooh, watching me - oh Hanging by A string this time
Don't easily - a Smile worth A hundred lies

If there's lessons to be learned
I'd rather get my jamming words in first boy
Tell you something That I've found
That the world's A better place When it's Upside down boy

If there's lessons To be learned
I'd rather get My jamming words In first boy
When your playing With desire
Don't come running To my place When it burns Like fire

Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah
Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah
Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah!
Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah!

Blue, blue, blue..
Waves, they crash.
As time goes by -
So hard to catch.
Too, too smooth..
Ain't all that.
Why don't you ride..
my side Of the track?

If there's lessons To be learned
I'd rather get My jamming words In first boy
Tell you something That I've found
That the world's A better place When it's Upside down boy

If there's lessons To be learned
I'd rather get My jamming words In first boy
When your playing With desire
Don't come running To my place When it burns Like fire boy



Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah!
Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah!
Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah!
Sweet about me?
Nothing sweet About me, yeah!



If you look this up -the official video clip- it is good - but it may be triggering so be warned please!

~fin

(you know if I think about this for too long I wont post it, so here it goes folks. I've got my tongue in my cheek -but its all good!) and I really wasn't sure if it was "too soon" or "too smooth" but either way, too soon or too smooth -neither are all that! ;)

 

[Mayhem]

You all do have great musical taste! I am looking for lyrics that really touch me like that to post, so you will hear from me soon. I really like sad music, it makes me feel better, as odd as that may sound.

Lucky for you, I may have found something along the sad but touching line.


This song is NOT about the war, this song is about the Warriors that fight. Many all over the world, love and have freedom. With that Freedom comes a cost, a very high cost. On that note. I offer the following.......


WARNING this may and more then likely WILL cause deep emotions. If you don't wish to delve into deep emotions STOP reading......... ( I purposely put in a gap between the start and end of the lyrics )










































TRACE ADKINS
"Til The Last Shot's Fired"



I was there in the winter of '64
When we camped in the ice at Nashville's doors
Three hundred miles our trail had lead
We barely had time to bury our dead
When the Yankees charged and the colors fell
Overton hill was a living hell
When we called retreat it was almost dark
I died with a grapeshot in my heart

Say a prayer for peace
For every fallen son
Set my spirit free
Let me lay down my gun
Sweet mother Mary I'm so tired
But I can't come home 'til the last shot's fired

In June of 1944
I waited in the blood of Omaha's shores
Twenty-one and scared to death
My heart poundin' in my chest
I almost made the first seawall
When my friends turned and saw me fall
I still smell the smoke, I can taste the mud
As I lay there dying from a loss of blood

Say a prayer for peace
For every fallen son
Set my spirit free
Let me lay down my gun
Sweet mother Mary I'm so tired
But I can't come home 'til the last shot's fired

I'm in the fields of Vietnam,
The mountains of Afghanistan
And I'm still hopin', waitin' prayin'
I did not die in vain

Say a prayer for peace
For every fallen son
Set our spirits free
Let us lay down our guns
Sweet mother Mary we're so tired
But we can't come home 'til the last shot's fired
'Til the last shot's fired

[Choir:]
Say a prayer for peace (for peace)
For our daughters and our sons
Set our spirits free (set us free)
Let us lay down our guns

[Trace:]
Sweet mother Mary, we're so tired
But we can't come home (No we can't come home)

[Choir:]
'Til the last shot's fired


















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[fin]

I have listened and watched this a few times now Mayhem, thankyou for posting everything you do. I can't help but be moved and think on Peace and everything that comes and goes with it.

I am glad that this thread is here and I thank that you have posted, it will help me to Always remember and Hope also. I am so lucky that I can come here and read, it is very emotional as you have said and I try to understand better some of what you are sharing with me.

Thankyou

 

[fin]

The Pretender - Foo Fighters

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in... again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?

I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense
Spinning infinity, boy
The wheel is spinning me
It's never-ending, never-ending
Same old story


What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

In time or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees
So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?


What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?
So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?