Childhood Ladylike...my White One Piece.

[Stickler]

Honestly...I repressed WHY I felt the deep feelings of shame, self-hatred and alienation I felt that day.
I thought it was because I'd foolishly fell in the creek in front of my cousins and got humiliated for it...

I've figured out...or been informed by the other occupants of my head, more like...that I'm DID...that memory was one carried by an autonomous part.
I got it back in 2012.

...Getting the memories back sort of makes my life make sense? I was responding on some level to it, I just REPRESSED ALL CONSCIOUS MEMORY OF IT HAPPENING. Compulsively doing or not doing weird stuff.

So life makes sense now. It hurts, but it's logical.

 

[Knak]

Honestly...I repressed WHY I felt the deep feelings of shame, self-hatred and alienation I felt that d...

It gives me hope that I can progress and leave behind what imprisons my own spontaneity. Your ability to define the process you are going through is a pattern I can follow to compare to my own thinking. Putting responsibility on your mom is important for real self worth.

I hope encouragement from others who relate to you can speed your relief from the pain. Your insight develops your ability to help others with similar abuse and also see it sooner.

I hope my words are heart-felt (never sure how I come across- over analytical).