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(Sorry, I know I wrote another thread.. I didn't want to put the same things in the same thread if they weren't connected in some way.. )
So I've been having a very stressful week(or a few..) and I'm hoping I'll be able to get out and go on a forest trail alone with my dog this weekend.. Forests always boost my mood.
I've been needing and wanting to cry for a very long time, but I'm so used to stopping/controlling myself that it's been I don't know how long since I've had a GOOD cry. Well finally, I got home and I took a few sleeping pills so I can fall asleep before I have a meltdown and started watching funny videos. There was one part of the video that made me laugh so much, I kept replaying the part. After the third or fourth time of replaying it, laughing even harder each time and it was like an immediate switch. I was laughing so hard one second, and a split second later I was sobbing so hard. I made sure to gain control again and shushed myself.. I don't know why, but I did. I remember this happening before except not in such an extreme way. I was just wondering if other people have experienced this and if it's maybe related to my anxiety and stress..? Or just holding it in and eventually I sort of.. crack?
So I've been having a very stressful week(or a few..) and I'm hoping I'll be able to get out and go on a forest trail alone with my dog this weekend.. Forests always boost my mood.
I've been needing and wanting to cry for a very long time, but I'm so used to stopping/controlling myself that it's been I don't know how long since I've had a GOOD cry. Well finally, I got home and I took a few sleeping pills so I can fall asleep before I have a meltdown and started watching funny videos. There was one part of the video that made me laugh so much, I kept replaying the part. After the third or fourth time of replaying it, laughing even harder each time and it was like an immediate switch. I was laughing so hard one second, and a split second later I was sobbing so hard. I made sure to gain control again and shushed myself.. I don't know why, but I did. I remember this happening before except not in such an extreme way. I was just wondering if other people have experienced this and if it's maybe related to my anxiety and stress..? Or just holding it in and eventually I sort of.. crack?