I just found this site, and I’m so grateful. I have difficulties trusting people and don’t have many friends, but I do have a lot of acquaintances. The people I have gotten close to don’t understand the challenges of living with CPTSD, and I tend to push them away or say something to make them leave. I do work, but I’d rather not leave my home and have everything I need delivered. I have to pay the bills and hope I’m not set off by a trigger, like a look from a coworker, the sound of someone’s voice, or an office door slamming too hard. The same goes for people who approach my cubicle from behind and say my name, scaring the living daylights out of me. I am in trauma therapy, and I’ve been sober for almost 20 months. However, I’m really struggling and want to be around those who understand the challenges we face but also celebrate our victories. Even little things that are huge things for me some days: showering, brushing my teeth, eating. I could go on and on. Thank you for being here, and I look forward to chatting with you all.