Hello everyone. If any of you could offer me any advice or support, it would mean the world to me. Also very important, I have no problem with people with special needs. I think they're some of the sweetest people in the world. It just so happens that my aunt is special needs, and it's vitally important to what's going on.
I didn't always live with my aunt, I used to live with my dad. But he moved his girlfriend back in, and they love to steal from me and lie to me and I can't be around that anymore. Now I live with my grandparents and my mentally handicapped aunt.
When I was a little girl, my grandma and my aunt were over at my house one day watching me while my mom was at work. My aunt was sitting on the couch, playing with a toy of mine. It was a tiny tiny Barbie phone, and she was pretending to talk on it. When I asked for it back, she ignored me. So me being little, I balled my hands up and dropped them onto her lap as a way to get her attention. She huffed, shoved me backwards, and then slammed her fists down onto my thighs. I got put into timeout for causing a scene, because my grandma didn't witness what had happened. Honestly I don't think it would've mattered.
A few years later, I was with my aunt in her room. I was facing the wall playing with her dolls, when I heard the door shut. I didn't think anything of it, I was still little after all. A few minutes later she started giggling. When I turned to look at her she had taken all of her clothes off. I immediately stood and tried to get around her to the door. She stepped into my way every time, and would reach out for me. I was eventually able to get away from her, and I locked myself in my room for hours.
I never told anyone about either of these two incidents until years later.
Several times I've woken up in the middle of the night to find her standing in my doorway. Once, I woke up right as she was coming in and I laid still just to see what she would do. She stood there for ten minutes, watching me. The other times she's always woken me up the moment she's opened the door. When I'd tell her to leave, she'd apologize and lie and say she either heard me crying or heard me talking on the phone or to my grandma.
Every time she's around I get such severe anxiety that my throat feels like it's closing up. I tear up, I hyperventilate, and I tremble.
My grandma never admits that her daughter could do any wrong. I told my grandma about my aunt hitting me and she just replied, "Well there's nothing I can do about it. I'm sorry." She makes excuses for her and has never tried to teach her right from wrong. I'm afraid to tell her about the attempted sexual abuse, I feel like it would just be a giant slap in the face.
My grandpa is on my side, but there's only so much he can do. Anytime he talks with her, my grandma rushes into the room and tells her not to listen to him and comforts her. I've told him everything and he's calling group homes, both for her benefit and mine.
If any of you have any ideas, please let me know. I see a therapist weekly, and I'm about to go meet with a psychiatrist.
I sleep with my door locked every night, but my grandma allows my aunt to know where she keeps my room key, so even then I don't feel safe. There is no where else I can go. I have no other stable family. I don't know what to do.
I didn't always live with my aunt, I used to live with my dad. But he moved his girlfriend back in, and they love to steal from me and lie to me and I can't be around that anymore. Now I live with my grandparents and my mentally handicapped aunt.
When I was a little girl, my grandma and my aunt were over at my house one day watching me while my mom was at work. My aunt was sitting on the couch, playing with a toy of mine. It was a tiny tiny Barbie phone, and she was pretending to talk on it. When I asked for it back, she ignored me. So me being little, I balled my hands up and dropped them onto her lap as a way to get her attention. She huffed, shoved me backwards, and then slammed her fists down onto my thighs. I got put into timeout for causing a scene, because my grandma didn't witness what had happened. Honestly I don't think it would've mattered.
A few years later, I was with my aunt in her room. I was facing the wall playing with her dolls, when I heard the door shut. I didn't think anything of it, I was still little after all. A few minutes later she started giggling. When I turned to look at her she had taken all of her clothes off. I immediately stood and tried to get around her to the door. She stepped into my way every time, and would reach out for me. I was eventually able to get away from her, and I locked myself in my room for hours.
I never told anyone about either of these two incidents until years later.
Several times I've woken up in the middle of the night to find her standing in my doorway. Once, I woke up right as she was coming in and I laid still just to see what she would do. She stood there for ten minutes, watching me. The other times she's always woken me up the moment she's opened the door. When I'd tell her to leave, she'd apologize and lie and say she either heard me crying or heard me talking on the phone or to my grandma.
Every time she's around I get such severe anxiety that my throat feels like it's closing up. I tear up, I hyperventilate, and I tremble.
My grandma never admits that her daughter could do any wrong. I told my grandma about my aunt hitting me and she just replied, "Well there's nothing I can do about it. I'm sorry." She makes excuses for her and has never tried to teach her right from wrong. I'm afraid to tell her about the attempted sexual abuse, I feel like it would just be a giant slap in the face.
My grandpa is on my side, but there's only so much he can do. Anytime he talks with her, my grandma rushes into the room and tells her not to listen to him and comforts her. I've told him everything and he's calling group homes, both for her benefit and mine.
If any of you have any ideas, please let me know. I see a therapist weekly, and I'm about to go meet with a psychiatrist.
I sleep with my door locked every night, but my grandma allows my aunt to know where she keeps my room key, so even then I don't feel safe. There is no where else I can go. I have no other stable family. I don't know what to do.
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