PeaceRequired
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Hi everyone, it's my first post on here and my first time on this forum. I hope I'm posting in the right area and doing the right thing; please feel free to move this or give me any pointers if necessary. I will have a good read about and hopefully find my way around like that.
I've had a lot of different problems over the years, all stemming, I think, from childhood abuse and then abuse in my adult life as well. I've worked really hard for twenty years through counselling, self help, cleaning up my lifestyle (drink, drugs, unhealthy relationships, all gone). I've been through a range of NHS mental health services as well as private ones, quite a wide variety of meds over the years and I try to keep myself level with yoga, walking, resting and so on - the usual stuff that most people do when they're trying to stay well.
The one thing I don't seem to be able to get a handle on is stopping a very extreme physical reaction in certain every day situations. This will sound silly but there are certain things people can say in a certain tone of voice that make me feel like I'm about to be attacked. It's usually in a situation that I feel to be unfair - again, it will sound silly but something every day like someone cutting in front of me in a queue and then being rude to me if I (politely) say, "excuse me, there's a queue here, you just cut in front". I don't even know why these sorts of things set me off but I immediately get very hot, I start to shake, my heart pounds and my head feels like I can't control a single thought. It takes me a long time to calm down enough to be able to feel back in control again (several hours in most cases) and often several days for all of the physical symptoms to go completely - I get so tense that I get a lot of pain in my back, I get an upset stomach that can take several days to settle, headache and so on. All from a small incident that most people would find mildly annoying.
There's no pause between the event happening and feeling that ill and out of control. It happened this morning, the whole interaction was less than sixty seconds and yet I'm here, twelve hours later, still feeling shaky, sick, bad head and so on.
I just wondered if anyone has found anything they can do, right in that moment that it's happening, that just kind of stops or slows that central nervous system response? It feels like it's all physical - I don't think to myself "oh, I'm going to be attacked" and then start to feel ill - it's like the physical stuff happens immediately and then the rest of me is playing catch up for days afterwards. I don't know if that makes any sense, reading it back it all feels a bit jumbled. Maybe it's ringing a bell with someone? Thanks in advance
I've had a lot of different problems over the years, all stemming, I think, from childhood abuse and then abuse in my adult life as well. I've worked really hard for twenty years through counselling, self help, cleaning up my lifestyle (drink, drugs, unhealthy relationships, all gone). I've been through a range of NHS mental health services as well as private ones, quite a wide variety of meds over the years and I try to keep myself level with yoga, walking, resting and so on - the usual stuff that most people do when they're trying to stay well.
The one thing I don't seem to be able to get a handle on is stopping a very extreme physical reaction in certain every day situations. This will sound silly but there are certain things people can say in a certain tone of voice that make me feel like I'm about to be attacked. It's usually in a situation that I feel to be unfair - again, it will sound silly but something every day like someone cutting in front of me in a queue and then being rude to me if I (politely) say, "excuse me, there's a queue here, you just cut in front". I don't even know why these sorts of things set me off but I immediately get very hot, I start to shake, my heart pounds and my head feels like I can't control a single thought. It takes me a long time to calm down enough to be able to feel back in control again (several hours in most cases) and often several days for all of the physical symptoms to go completely - I get so tense that I get a lot of pain in my back, I get an upset stomach that can take several days to settle, headache and so on. All from a small incident that most people would find mildly annoying.
There's no pause between the event happening and feeling that ill and out of control. It happened this morning, the whole interaction was less than sixty seconds and yet I'm here, twelve hours later, still feeling shaky, sick, bad head and so on.
I just wondered if anyone has found anything they can do, right in that moment that it's happening, that just kind of stops or slows that central nervous system response? It feels like it's all physical - I don't think to myself "oh, I'm going to be attacked" and then start to feel ill - it's like the physical stuff happens immediately and then the rest of me is playing catch up for days afterwards. I don't know if that makes any sense, reading it back it all feels a bit jumbled. Maybe it's ringing a bell with someone? Thanks in advance