Lost Identity

[Alibongo]

So a year ago I was diagnosed with ptsd following a terrorist attack. I used to be a strong confident person but now I've turned into a pathetic, constantly scared mess. All the things I used to enjoy just don't make me happy anymore - not much does these days. It took me a long time to become happy with myself , now all that hard work has been destroyed and I hate the person I've turned into I've no idea who I am anymore

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

Can I ask if you have a question you want answered? Do you want feedback? Are you just venting? I'm not sure how to respond.

 

[Alibongo]

Lol I don't even know! Venting I suppose. Is it something other people have gone through too? X

 

[Gadgie]

Welcome to the site, you have come to the right place to find out who you are, as everybody in here has gone through the same thing.

So what ever you post, you can be sure that everyone here can understand what your saying. Are you having therapy just now?
If so, how are you progressing with it?

I look forward to reading more of your posts, so don't be afraid to say what you feel, as we all know what you are going through, good luck.

 

[Alibongo]

Welcome to the site, you have come to the right place to find out who you are, as everybody in here has...

Thank u! Yeah in therapy just now and doing exposure work which is tough but only going every 2 weeks or so. Finding it hard to open up - I like to keep everything to myself. Hate being vulnerable

 

[Killashandra]

Hi,

Firstly, you are NOT pathetic! You have suffered from severe trauma. That is not your fault!
I'm so sorry for the trauma you have suffered from, no one deserves to be put under attack in everyday life.

However you have come to the right place for understanding, support and help if you want it or need it. As said by Gadgie there are a lot of people here who have suffered from trauma in one form or another here so there will be no judgement. That's why we're here.

I'd like to offer just a tidbit of advice something that helps me everyday, please just find one thing to find joy in, whether this be enjoying the breeze you feel on your face, the night sky and it's twinkling untouched purity, the view of where every you are standing, the colors of the flowers etc, it takes 5 seconds to stand still and let it in. Hopefully this will allow you to enjoy some of what you enjoyed pre trauma.

It's hard to start from the beginning again, but at least you have some ground to work on.

All the best and hugs if you'll accept them

Killa

 

[ladee]

I am so sorry for what brought you here. But am very glad you found us.
One of the many things I love about this site, is the understanding and support we get trying to muddle thru our lives.
Someone always relates. We understand. So hope you utilize everything here and welcome .

 

[Alibongo]

Hi,

Firstly, you are NOT pathetic! You have suffered from severe trauma. That is not your fault!...

Thank you for the advice and hugs. Much appreciated

 

[Alibongo]

I am so sorry for what brought you here. But am very glad you found us.
One of the many things I love abo...

Thank you x

 

[Sideways]

Hey and welcome to the forum:)

10 years ago, before my diagnosis? I barely recognise that person. All the "good stuff" I had going on in my life and within myself, *poof*, gone. A lot of depression followed. A lot.

But I'm rebuilding. Both my life, and who I am as a person. And that's what healing is about. I'm not going to try and sell you some photoshopped "rebuilding into an even better version" bs. I didn't need my trauma, could've done just fine with myself and my life without it. But I'm rebuilding, and that's the important part. It does happen. I'll be different, sure. There will never come a time when my trauma didn't happen and I can go back to the way I was. But that's okay - it doesn't mean I won't be able to love the person that I become as I heal. She could end up being pretty awesome too.

Point is, healing is possible. The depression recedes, and we find ourselves rebuilding, healing. It will happen for you. Be gentle with yourself in the meantime.