Lucky To Have This Chance At Life! ~ Frustration, Confusion & Pain Acceptance

[goingonhope]

Well, I'm just about out of my f'n mind today with anxiety rapidly increasing.

ANXIETY......Nothing I ought to feel bad about! When Fck, I'm going to continually live with relapses of this for the rest of my life. Especially, what with the life that I have.

I'm not implying that I'm ungrateful when in fact I'm very lucky too, to have this chance at life.

I should be dead. And, I know I'm not alone in this.

Certainly, I don't mean that I deserve to be dead, or that I ought to cease striving to be, to accomplish and to do more with my life, certainly I desire to keep showing up, working toward and praying for the best for all, ...and no matter what happens!

It's in my blood to keep trying!

And, while I succeed and fail and succeed and fail, I keep doing my best, but damn the part about falling, tripping, and the whole presentation of ongoing obstacles, return of high anxiety and any failings on my part, well this just all feels so painful and frustrating!

So I'm now supposing I ought to refine my friendships with life's pains and frustrations, because honestly they're part of my reality that isn't going anywhere on my power; They're here to stay for just so long as I am awake and alive.

So I'm overwhelmed, yes. In fact today, I'm totally f'n overwhelmed! ....And, I can't think straight for long today as I have no less then a few hundred things, worries and/or need to do's and want to do's, add-in obsessions, all combined with emotion just begging for my attention today.

 

[Jade-]

I totally understand the feeling of falling and tripping. It IS painful and frustrating.

Sorry you are feeling overwhelmed. Hopefully things will get better for you.

 

[goingonhope]

Thank you, Jadebear for this understanding!

Sometimes another's hearing and really understanding can relieve so much pressure when having to continue, continue, continue in life and while doing so, generally, very much emotionally isolated, too often feeling imprisoned and while alone.

 

[goingonhope]

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