Lurking For Months, Now A Member (scared)

[hunter]

Hello everyone, I think I finally found a place that I'm hoping I will have the courage to open up and talk to others that can relate to this mind controling PTSD.

 

[sbump]

Welcome

 

[Nicolette]

Welcome hunter. It's good that you feel that you can begin to open up here. We're here to listen, support, encourage and maybe even help you. :)

 

[hunter]

after reading a couple other intros I want to add more. I am a 53 year old wife, mother and nana. In august of 2010 I got MRSA in my bloodstream. The first night in the er the doctors told my husband they didn't think I would make it through the night. With the grace of God I did. The same thing happened in december 2010. In january 2011 a specialist told me that he thought I had an uncommon type of autoimmune diease that attacks the soft tissue. He mentioned tests and drugs that i never heard of. While waiting for my next appointment hell started. At the age of 6 I was sexually molested by my mothers boyfriend. I had my first flashback. I thought I was dying. There is so much more to tell but I don't want to make this any longer than it already is. From some of the things I read on here you guys are remarkable. God Bless

 

[hunter]

I promise this will be the last time I will reply to my own post. I am not very good on the computer. I can only search and read, anyway. What really tipped the wagon was last week my T said she thinks I have dementia. My family and pcp noticed it too. I don't know if I will live through the ptsd, I don't want to live if I have a type of "dementia" I have already put my faamily through so much, can you imagine what they will go through. I cry just thinking about it.

 

[Jacquie]

Its ok. (((hugs)))

The fear reaction to your medical news.......took you right back to another time you were terrified.

And yanno something? Its ok to be scared. It really is.

Wish I could give you a hug.

 

[NIKI]

:) Welcome hunter, I'm glad you decided to become a member.:tup: I hope that you find much help here.:)

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the board. I hope you find the help here to be able to heal.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome :)

 

[jo may]

Welcome hunter to the forum:)

We are all here for the support and understanding of each other.

 

[Martin Taylor]

Welcome

 

[Nighthawk]

Welcome to the forum:)