Make It Stop

[It's Me]

Erm it was someone from the nhs who came to my house and did an assessment on me, said she'd get me help then left and did absolutely zilch. Yeah, we're trying to get back to her but it's not really working very well and all she can do is submit my diagnosis and hope for help? I don't know it's all so confusing

 

[Jane.l]

It is confusing, surely CAMHS should be helping you? Are your parents supportive? Do you have any friends that are helpful to talk to?

 

[It's Me]

I would've thought so. My dad doesn't really get it and god forbid someone he knows has a mental health issue. My mum died in January - the PTSD is from the stuff at the hospital over the three months she was in there for. I do have one but I always feel like I'm annoying her, but she knows basically everything about me

 

[Jane.l]

Sorry you have been through such a tough time and for the loss of your mum. I guess it must be really hard if your dad is grieving too - makes for a difficult home life if you feel he doesn't understand.

One good friend is worth a lot - I am sure she doesn't mind you off loading with her - you must be carrying a lot of 'stuff' at the moment .

 

[It's Me]

Indeed, and yeah - I really don't know what I'd do without her

 

[Jane.l]

My phone has gone crazy !

Going back to your question I would be careful what you say to who and where - mental health issues are not understood and you will get a whole wall of ignorance with ptsd which really isn't worth battling with - it's much easier to say 'I am doing ok thanks '. Let your friend support you and maybe keep going back to your GP until you get the help you need ?

 

[Blue Survivor]

Hi @It's Me. I totally get what you're going through. For me it has not gotten any easier to try to act like the person that I was before my trauma. Because I am not that person. People who do not have ptsd don't really understand, it seems. So often I will just say that I am okay.

If for some reason I were to tell that person 'I am super anxious today, and I see someone over there who knows my abuser and that makes me very nervous that he could be here too and I just had a thought pop into my head about that time he did such -and-such to me, but that wasn't as bad as the nightmare I had last night..." all that might prompt someone to ask if I am okay. If I were to answer that I had ptsd, and was having a hard time with it today, they probably would not know what it was and they would probably ask me about it and then ask about what sort of trauma I had experienced, not ever realizing that they could be triggering me on an already-stressful day. That's why I will tell them I am okay, and then change the subject.

 

[It's Me]

Yeah, literally only 3 people at school know and like 3 adults. Yeah, had that again today - someone I know went into hospital last night and it really hit me for a weird reason and I kept shaking but I still said I was okay :p haha but no one really notices anyway so it was fine :) x